lost in a fairytale world

copyrighted by caryn
Thursday, March 29, 2007

its a recharging moment..

its tiring..
its so tiring..
independent..
dependable..
cheerful..
gd at cheering ppl..

to my gf..
to my bf..
to my closer frens..
to the ppl in sch..
to the ppl at home..

its damn tiring..

who really ask me to stop..
who really allow me to stop..

i nid to recharge myself to move on n be the 'model' Cynthia..

who really takes an effort to take note abt me..
to know tt i'm always putting up a brave front..

not even a guy tt spent 4 yrs with me..
not even mom tt knew me ferever..

i wanna be a Cynthia tt can cry when i get scolded..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can get everything tt i wan..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can buy everything i wan..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can idle n be inefficient..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt is not so responsible, disorganised and has no plans fer the future..

but can i really be like tt?

Cynthia is being sterotyped..
n i gotta live up to the name of Cynthia..

its freaking freaking tiring..

teddy tagged me earlier to say abt weird things abt Cynthia..
i think if i really think abt it..i think the list wld nv end..wld nv end..

i cant even remember the last time i din have to live up to my own name..
i was model Cynthia the day i had memory..
sometimes i cant wait to return to the arms of the Holy Father..
till den i can rest..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
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