lost in a fairytale world

copyrighted by caryn
Saturday, April 28, 2007

its a post exams blog 3..

well well..coding theory went on fine..
i realise i dont really like to check/ talk abt my papers to find out how well/bad did i do for it..

the preparations for HY2207 is disgusting..ok i gotta admit bcoz i was the least interested in this module i din really study during term time..but i really read alot alot alot for this stupid paper..
i dunno how would i fare fer this paper..but i've tried my best..

it din help tt i received an SMS from u before my paper..something in me told me not to read it b4 the exams..but i juz had to..
u told me u r unofficially tog with another gal..my heart sank..
so much abt the whinings to me..abt how i f***ed ur life..
during the whole paper..i had flashbacks of u..
i wonder y am i so affected by tt sms..i'm supposed to be happy for you..
bahx..
3 yrs 9 mths of my life perhaps was impt to me but i refuse tto acknowledge it..
u said we shld go back to being gd frenz..i hope so..
i think wad sweet say is right..
one fears wad one's capable of..
i know i recovered from the r/s fast..i'm selfish and wanted ur love as well..
but u got back fast as well..
i feel crappy..

i tried to sleep thru it..

when i woke up..my heart sunk again..my EPT results arrived..
i passed the Written component..failed the oral..its kinda expected..
but this would mean that i have to teach on probation fer a year before going into NIE..
sharks.
i'm really not ready to teach..n..i wun have eileen n yexiang as my classmate..
hiakx..i can extend my thailand trip liaox..

today is not a good day..
nothing is going right today..
i wanna cry myself to slp..i wan someone to acc me to keep my thots occupied..
bahx..

on a hind note..
congrats to my lil sis..
i'm proud of her..
she got her first choice fer NUS and NTU..bizad and comm studies..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
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