lost in a fairytale world

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copyrighted by caryn
Thursday, September 20, 2007

its a brave front..

its so hard..
its juz so hard to put up a brave front..
its so hard..
to see him lying there motionless..
to see him so fragile..
to see him wanting to speak..
its so hard..

it seem so easy for some..
to not give him food..
to not give let him be on drip..
to not give him medication..
to not let him drink..
it seem so easy..

im fighting back my tears everytime i see him..
i'm fighting back my tears in front of my family..
y am i so affected? i was not attached to him..
even as a elder..i feel so much..wads wrong with some of them..

this is really too much for me to take..
there r so many regrets..
i juz want him to be himself..be strong..be at peace..
i've been praying so so so hard every morning during devotion..during chapel..
my bro prayed..he had a spiritual struggle..
Wad is God trying to say..pls enlighten me..

I'm only asking for the best for him..
Is this too much?

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
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