lost in a fairytale world

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Friday, November 30, 2007

arghx..i really cant stand it any more..
reading abt the passing of the 5 dragon boaters bring tears..
i may not know any of them personally..
but y r they gone so soon, God give u some n take away some..tts wad i always say..
but key word id SOME not ALL! arghx
i'm upset..
these r all fine young men and may i say..fine teacher and fine teacher-to-be..
how can u guys juz go like tt..u haven pay off ur bond with MOE..
u guys r so strong with those arm muscles..how can u guys not hang on to sth..

death bring tears to my eyes..
the last death was my paternal grandma's back in pri 6..i never remember any emotions then..
till recently, paternal granddad passed away too..i began to feel the "heat"..
i began to understand leonie's saddness..i began to hate death..
i began to hate cancer..i dont want any one ard me to go..so if u happen to be ard me..pls dont mention anithing like tt..i'm upset..
past 1 week was full of unpleasant news everyday..death..cancer..illness..wad is this world coming to..am i knowing more ppl or r more ppl meeting with crisis..
everything puts me so small in comparison..is tehre nothing tt i can do..
my student told me..do wad u r doing..u r a gd teacher..dont worry abt the rest bcoz ur students will be grateful for wad u have done..
arghx..i nid a student to tell me tt?! shld i be glad i'm not like stephen bcoz i hear this b4 i die..hiakx..
i know this blog i veri disorganisly written..but too much emotions r going thru me now..i juz feel UPSET.. arghx..
for wadever is it..i'm not going to complain abt my lil life and live life to the fullest..no complaint blogs for at least a yr..

for i always tell my boys..give thanks to wadever God have given you..

THANK YOU!

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
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