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its a bloggable moment!

2009-08-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

Its been a LONG LONG time! but i had a bloggable moment today! haha

I was on the way to class today, suddenly the whole bunch of my kids came towards me and offered to carry my stuff for me.

I thot they wanted to get an act of merit from me, but they all said no. They grabbed my stuff and shoved me to a boy who arm locked with me. I snapped out of that arm lock and shoo-ed them into class.

The sight that greeted me at the door was 2 rows of boys from the door to my teachers desk and the lighting in the class dimmed..

They wanted me to "walk down the isle" with THAT boy! I FREAKED OUT!

HAHA

I ran out of the class and demanded a reason but they obviously din wanna say, so i wanted to give ALL of them detention but they scrambled back to their seats -.-

I check with my mentee from next door class and found out tt it was a dare THAT boy had to do.. >.<

I told their form teacher about it..and when they met their form teacher, they acutally ask "so have u heard abt mrs XXX'

OMG *faints*

oh wells, another light hearted moment in teaching =)

signing off!
Cynz

its a LONG month

2009-04-07T17:39:00.002+08:00

its been a long month.. a LONg time.. with too many things happening..

practicum did not start off well by my own standards, but i'm coping better..

well..better enough to get me more observations, I'm keeping my fingers cross..

I really afraid to be disappointed by myself..but well..能入圍已經是一種更定..i'm really comforted by that..

well, bro's application to do his 2nd masters aint going well and he might be heading back b4 we know and mom's on her first long trip overseas.. i've decided not to go bcoz of $$ issue as well as family issues..

yesh..her cancer is back..i feel so sorry for her..she has been suffering all her life..wad can i do for her? sometimes i wished i did medicine instead..y did i take F Maths when i could take bio den..gosh..will my life be different now? all i can do now if to acc her to scans and checkups and try to do things that she like..wad else can i do? i hope she makes it pass 17th dec..

all is well, but i'm getting busier..and am beginning to see the uglier side of work life..stay clear n stay out i hope..i hope everything will turn out fine..i really rather everything pause forever..

its coming to an end

2009-02-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

WooHoo..NIE is finally coming to an end..and i'm heading for practicum real soon..

but before all these good news..i'm stuck with tons of assignments..

i really cant wait for everything to be over and done with all these bcoz the next day will be V day.

AND i'm going to bangkok for shopping!!!

i miss thailand..

eMotiOns

its a irony..

2008-10-16T00:32:00.001+08:00

i thot it was the beginning of me trying to let u into my world..

perhaps honesty is NOT the best policy..

and perhaps..

keeping everything to myself is a safer bet..

its a beginning..

2008-10-12T16:08:00.001+08:00

thankiew..

urs truly..

Mrs Chen

its a bad children's day

2008-10-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

this is the worst children's day i ever have...

started from monday..i has shivering in class..

i thot i juz did not have enuff slp..so i slp instead of eat during lunch hoping not to skip my face math class.

when i woke up..i felt tt i could not move..i told me my fren tt i could make it for math and project work..she asked me to take a cab home or see a doc..

i had to wake 45 mins in ht ehot afternoon sun at the void deck for the clinic to open, altho the nurse ask me to come at 230, they only open their shuttter at 245..i think i almost died..temp reading was 39.9

i had to crawl home myself with my huge file and macbook..i think if anyone were to rob me..i'll juz faint..

tuesday was just as bad..juz past midnite..i started to have sever diarrhea everytime was just coloured water controllable and it went on for at least 10 times.. sweet check me in to NUH A&E juz before midnite..

the drip needle was huge! i had 2 packets of dunno wad..and 1 huge packet of NaCl..had 2 injects and some pills..had another 2 more days of MC..

but i'm supposed to finish 2 projects this week...i feel so bad..friday is no sch day for my combi..how am i going to contribute to my projects...hiakx..i cant collect my ring and pay for my location bcoz the money is in my bank..

my sis and mom also taken ill..tho not as bad as me..

oh god..

but thru this..i know i have someone to depend on when i fall sick nx time..

its a post dedicated to u..

2008-09-23T01:50:00.002+08:00

This is for you sweet..

thank you for everything..

nothing but the best memories..

i know i'm going to be in gd hands..

its a LONG TIME

2008-08-07T21:47:00.003+08:00

its been a long long time since i blog..

not that i dont have anything to blog..

but i seriously cant find any time to..

some updates..

i left barker on 18th July..

it was a bitter sweet thing..

was quite touched by the boys on the notes, gifts..

not forgetting 3B2 throwing a surprise farewell party for me..

i wanted to do emo things for them..but i reckon i stay sombre..haha

as if!

NIE for now..

many said its a break from teaching..

asked me to enjoy it..

at first i miss barker..and think its DARN BORING..

first week and i found its damn DUH..

the things e study..crap

now 2nd week..

HELL LOTS of reading!!!

but i love my math tutor..he's great manx..i think i really really learn alot tt i always wanted to know about teaching math..

he captures attention and does engaged learning.

altho he's strict and everything i think he's GOOD

unlike tt faggot(ask me if u need to know)

my brother left for the states for his Masters..

i'm all happy for him..

but i cant hold back my tears at the airport..

juz 2 days ago..

i cried..BADLY..for 3 man in my life..

i first cried for my brother..

i suddenly miss him terrible..

someone tt i can speak to randomly about most things..

the house's been so quiet..

the view of his room from my desk looks awfully weird..

i'm so afraid tt something will happen to him there..

i den cried for you..

i heard a song tt have always been on my itunes..

it spoke of how i feel..

i really dunno how did i do..or why i deserve all those changes from u..

but i'm really thankful..

Thank you for loving me..

last person i cried for was my dad..

i was hurt..abt his response he told us..

i was hurt..abt the way my bro dislike him..

i feel tt my daddy is the BEST daddy..

he may not say much..but i know deep down..he loves us all..

and the NEWS of the entry is tt..

i'm getting married..

haha..

i'm so happy..

things r finally materialising..

but there is juz so much to do..

i think we will feel lost soon..

love nest : FOUND

ROM: FOUND

wedding band: finding..

renovation: finding..

actual dinner: LOST

- i.am.a.happy.gal -

out

its a EMO-I-N-G

2008-06-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

its a EMO-ing week

i feel like running away from everything..
i feel like crying away everything..

but i really dunno wads wrong..

why cant i juz cry everything out and not have to explain..
why cant i be left alone..

i have to always be the one everyone know as independent and strong?!

i juz wan to get away..

its a NEW haircut!

2008-04-25T22:14:00.004+08:00

Back for a LONG time without post..

its in for a surprise..

let picture speak a thousand words..

BOLD enough GF?

haha...

a new chapter a new change..

i made my hair yesterday..

now is today..

and i'm signing my life to MOE tmr..

MY LIFE! wads happening?!?!

its another busy week.

2008-02-14T11:56:00.002+08:00

omg..school have been so so so busy..
finally taking a overdue break..
declared no marking day last night to rest..n today's test day..so no teaching..
boy G came up to me today n said his mom wans to talk to me..
so i called his mom..

n so his mom said tt boy G would like me to be his tutor after i leave the school!
he wans me to coach him till O levels.. *beams*
such a great start to a great Valentine's Day..

oh yar..Happy Valentine's Day to you all!

* n thank you for tt lil surprise.. i love u!*

its a beautiful night..

2008-02-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

it was a beautiful night..

its a hectic Jan 2008..

2008-01-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

indeed a hectic January 2008..

busy planning lessons..busy preparing worksheets..busy customing to sch life once again..
busy marking papers..busy doing tuition to earn more money..busy pleasing ppl ard me..
busy planning surprises..busy cheering ppl up..
this is January 2008..

2008 indeed started a fruitful year..
the boys in Sec3 are more handful at this start of the year..but it heartens me to see last year student coming to me and asking for help bcoz apparently i taught better..its also heartening to see graduated students do so well for Os and actually remember tt i did a few relief lessons for them n thanked me..
teaching is indeed rewarding..

its a pity i cant find time for myself..but life is gd..i guess they give teachers a break quarterly for a reason..for now..i've to shelf science club matters.. the best i did was to contribute to their fund raising..i think that's the best i can go for now..

this january..
we increase in nett asset..
bikes, watch and tons of love..

come febuary..
my favourite month..
with love, care, food and MONEY!
come febuary..hurry up..

its a year end wrap up..

2007-12-28T10:42:00.000+08:00

i'm so so bored at work on the 2nd day back in school..tt i decided to blog..oh wells..december in short..

i starting tutoring my lil cousins..which r quite a handful..
i went to dentist with sweet..
had a mini revamp for my room..
met up with KAP gang..
watch Golden Compass with sweet, my sista, my sis's bf n my MOM! haha..
did OCC at hougang with Science Club..i really miss them..
i rented a Honda Civic for 6 days ard the festive,drove ard more than i ever did in my whole life..
stayed at Chalet with my maternal extented family plus sweet..bladed
received a free hair cut at Kimage prestige from my darling sista..
went to church fer xmas service bcoz i had to drive my grandma n aunt n mom..sweet came fer the service as well..
met sweet n the other biker frens..
met the scouts for scouts campfire at CTSS..and again at Steve's new flat!
went back to school for 2 full days of time wasting with meetings n courses..n for a IT course tt's meant for teahers of my mom's generation..crapx.
went to galfren's house for a xmas cum bday mini party with jiahui n siling..
oh wells..
wad can i complain abt? life have been so gd to me recently..
pay rise..bonus..more pay rise..
the onli thing is..time to set alarm to 5:45 again!
Happy 2008 ppls..

its a pokemon!

2007-12-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

its a Pokémon !

its a happy day..

2007-12-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

lalala..its a happy day..
i'm been in gd mood in recent days..
tho spring cleaning have been tiring..
shopping with gf is great..
bonding with lil sis in remaking our room is great..
having gd news non stop thru out today is great..
more money..brighter future..i love today! period

the onli bad thing..i chewed on my tongue..its swollen now..hiakx

its their passing..

2007-11-30T13:02:00.000+08:00

arghx..i really cant stand it any more..
reading abt the passing of the 5 dragon boaters bring tears..
i may not know any of them personally..
but y r they gone so soon, God give u some n take away some..tts wad i always say..
but key word id SOME not ALL! arghx
i'm upset..
these r all fine young men and may i say..fine teacher and fine teacher-to-be..
how can u guys juz go like tt..u haven pay off ur bond with MOE..
u guys r so strong with those arm muscles..how can u guys not hang on to sth..

death bring tears to my eyes..
the last death was my paternal grandma's back in pri 6..i never remember any emotions then..
till recently, paternal granddad passed away too..i began to feel the "heat"..
i began to understand leonie's saddness..i began to hate death..
i began to hate cancer..i dont want any one ard me to go..so if u happen to be ard me..pls dont mention anithing like tt..i'm upset..
past 1 week was full of unpleasant news everyday..death..cancer..illness..wad is this world coming to..am i knowing more ppl or r more ppl meeting with crisis..
everything puts me so small in comparison..is tehre nothing tt i can do..
my student told me..do wad u r doing..u r a gd teacher..dont worry abt the rest bcoz ur students will be grateful for wad u have done..
arghx..i nid a student to tell me tt?! shld i be glad i'm not like stephen bcoz i hear this b4 i die..hiakx..
i know this blog i veri disorganisly written..but too much emotions r going thru me now..i juz feel UPSET.. arghx..
for wadever is it..i'm not going to complain abt my lil life and live life to the fullest..no complaint blogs for at least a yr..

for i always tell my boys..give thanks to wadever God have given you..

THANK YOU!

its yet another test..

2007-11-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

its a BORING holiday..

2007-11-22T01:11:00.000+08:00

its a BORING holiday..

baa..its so boring..first week of NOT going for work..
EVERYONE is at work..or busy with exams..there is seriously nothing to do..
my life now is juz eat sleep PSP-ing meeting sweet..n the cycle continues..it gets broken onli on weekends where shopping with gf comes in..

baa..i need to get myself busy..
gimmeideas of wad to do!
currently..

1. learn to knit
2. pack my wardrobe
3. pack my table
4. prepare classroom ground rules
5. go overseas..even sentosa's fine..but i miss thailand..

gimme sth to do..part time job someone??

its a testES..

2007-11-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

You Are a Blue Crayon

Your world is colored in calm, understated, deep colors.
You are a loyal person, and the truest friend anyone could hope to find.
On the inside, you tend to be emotional and even a bit moody.
However, you know that people depend on you. So you put on a strong front.

Your color wheel opposite is orange. Orange people may be opinionated, but you feel they lack the depth to truly understand what they're saying.

What Color Crayon Are You?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.
You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.
You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.
This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

You Can Make 70% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.
Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!
As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.

Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen
Or lend a shoulder to cry on
You're there through thick and thin
Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.
At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.
When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism.

In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.
Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.
You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

The Birth Order Predictor

Your Kissing Grade: C+

Your kisses are downright average... and a little boring.
No one is going to hate kissing you, but no one is going to call you a fantastic kisser.
Slow down, experiment a little, and remember that less is often more when it comes to kissing!

How Do Your Kisses Rate?

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You a Right Brained or Left Brained Woman in Love?

You Are a Sleek Black Bra!

Subtle, sophisticated, and classy.
You're not the first woman a man notices in the room...
But you're the one he remembers a week later.
You need a guy who will make a lasting impression on you too!

What Kind of Bra Are You?

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them.
You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist.

Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry.
If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You Should Drive a BMW

Refined and classy, you want a car that looks rich... and goes fast!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

Your SAT Score of 1300 Means:

You Scored Higher Than Howard Stern
You Scored Higher Than George W. Bush
You Scored Lower Than Al Gore
You Scored Lower Than David Duchovny
You Scored Lower Than Natalie Portman
You Scored Lower Than Bill Gates

Your IQ is most likely in the 130-140 range

Equivalent ACT score: 29

Schools that Fit Your SAT Score:
College of William and Mary
New York University
Boston College
United States Naval Academy
University of California, Berkeley

What Does Your SAT Score Mean?

Your Celebrity Sisters Are Jessica and Ashlee

Beautiful, feminine, and stylish.
Who care's if you're a bit of a daddy's girl?

Who Are Your Celebrity Sisters?

Travel Horoscope for Libra

When you travel, you want to relax and laze around.
You want a vacation that doesn't demand too much of you. It's time to refuel.

You should travel to:

Napa Valley
Morocco
Ireland
The Gold Coast of Australia
Any small private island

What's Your Travel Horoscope?

You Are A Vanilla Ice Cream Girl

Flexible. Easygoing. Classic.

What Flavor Ice Cream Girl Are You?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

its a post birthday post..

2007-10-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

wells..i guess 22nd aint a gd number to start with..

right after the clock strike 12, my laptop crashed..
with a heavy heart..

greeted in the morning with an unexpected call and a lift to school..
with mashes potatoes and tirmisu..
Shared by joy with the staff in the dept to recieve even more joy..
the food was fabulous..
just as everything was fitting into place.. i recieved a call from admin office..
i had a parcel..who could it be?
flowers to conmplete the day..with a lil bear and chocolates to complete my day..

it was a compelling action to rush to shenton area to look for the flowers sender and den rushing to meet the greatest chef..

22nd may not have a gd start..but definately ended well..
it made me feel tt the love i'm giving out is coming all back to me..
how deserving how motivational..
even thru the results of the boys..extra afternoons in school seems so lil i did..

Honours Roll
thank you henree, jinting, desmond, siongjie, siang, shiming, john, hanbin, guanheng, duofeng, jiawei, my lil sis and my dearest mom for all the well wishes..
thank you my dearest teddy for making such a big attempt to put a smile on my face..
thank you my sweetest sweet bf for taking so much pain, time, money and effort to make me feel tt the 10 yrs was worth the wait..
also thank woolly for teaching joe for cooking the potatoes and cake..if nt i also wun have kou fu.. =p
thank you up there for blessing me with so many love ones..

THANK YOU

love,
cyn

its a goodbye..

2007-09-21T01:12:00.000+08:00

Goodbye..
this was the last time i got to see you..
i din realise ur importance until i broke down in front of my HoD..
until i gave up 3 days of work so tt i can be with you..
i really dont understand y can others be so non-chanalant..
i know we aint close..
but u r my granddad..
prob bcoz u were the only granddad i had memory of..i hate to let u go..
but i know u r at a place less the sufferings..
Dont worry abt us..we have u in our heart..

its been my honour to tie the last tie u gotta wear..
its my honour to be the only rep from the younger generation to acc u thru the day..
i'm happy u r on ur way to meet her..
do give us ur blessings to keep this large family together..

Tan Kim Tuay
1922 - 2007
20 September 2007
183A Jelebu Road

its a brave front..

2007-09-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

its a brave front..

its so hard..
its juz so hard to put up a brave front..
its so hard..
to see him lying there motionless..
to see him so fragile..
to see him wanting to speak..
its so hard..

it seem so easy for some..
to not give him food..
to not give let him be on drip..
to not give him medication..
to not let him drink..
it seem so easy..

im fighting back my tears everytime i see him..
i'm fighting back my tears in front of my family..
y am i so affected? i was not attached to him..
even as a elder..i feel so much..wads wrong with some of them..

this is really too much for me to take..
there r so many regrets..
i juz want him to be himself..be strong..be at peace..
i've been praying so so so hard every morning during devotion..during chapel..
my bro prayed..he had a spiritual struggle..
Wad is God trying to say..pls enlighten me..

I'm only asking for the best for him..
Is this too much?

its a first school holiday..

2007-09-08T18:36:00.001+08:00

its a first school holiday..

yeap..its a first one as a CHER..MADAM we call it in ACS..haha..
oh well..really nothing better to do den go back fer remedial..tuitions..and spending time with sweet..AND of coz..not forgetting..getting SICK..
i've been sick since teachers' day celebrations..n i'm not getting any better..
and dearest gf started work n is enjoying singlehood..=)

school's starting soon..this feels like term break to me..to recover and start whacking again..but its ok..its gonna be exams soon..and before i know it..my bday..sweet's bday and school holidays! woohoo...

i'm really looking forward to the getaway coming..its not about the getaway..but getting into someone's life..

its a 881..

2007-08-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

its a 881..

its a hokkien musical..to be enjoyed with a hokkien at heart person sitting right next to you..

its a monthversary..

2007-08-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

its a monthversary..

cheerios to my first month at work!
got my pay..had fun with the teachers..got to know the students pretty well..i din realised its been juz one month until another teacher pointed out tt i can remember names quite fast..i'm enjoying wad i'm doing despite the terrible lot of students..i'm glad i din get the worse ppl ard in barker..God bless
students r asking fer friendster, MSN, and blogs..i'll keeping them out of my personal space..at least fer now..
last nite was 28th AGM for Science Club..FINALLY..the job is done..i fnially got out of tt hole..i felt emotional giving my speech..the first time i had to address the crowd as hon gen sec..ironically its my last day on duty..i fought back my tears..for my dearest driectors under my charge..i really v proud of lijing, alvin and xiaojun to get the clean sweep of outstanding MC..and of timothy for TalentQuestX a banging success..but apparently 28th saw the saddness in me despite saying tt i'm more than happy and willing to step down..but i really am..
now i have more time for myself..more time to concentrate to teach..more time for u..

but pls allow me to sign off for the one very last time..

Tan Pei Juan Cynthia (Ms.)
Honorary General Secretary
27th Management Committee
NUS Students' Science Club

its a first pay..

2007-08-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

its a first pay..

oh wells..alot of hoo haa about my first pay abt when i'm getting it..how much i'm getting..but wells..i got it on time n the right amount..thank Lord..

teaching have been a breeze..i think most of the students think i'm a monster teacher..esp the younger boys..but the older boys r quite ok with me..well its a mutual thing..

the thing i dun like is that the other teachers treat me like a spare teacher..cant go fer lessons or anithing i have to stand in for them..sigh..and teachers dun tell me in advance that they change the plans fer the lessons when they asked me to prepare to cnduct lessons..oh wells..i've to get used to being a junior once again..

Flagged and Ragged..
this yr is my last Rag anf Flag officially. Flag was so emotional for all of us..i was overwhelmed when i know tt we got the Gold award..tts all we needed to prove that Science Fac pa buay toh..i really v thankful of everyone tt have played a role in this..alumni's donation..leonie and ronglun's assistance..the Flag comm's never say die spirit..the drivers' hardwork..n not forgetting the Science Freshies tt flag their hearts out for the Faculty..i really hope the spirit of Flagging never die in ur heart..n like wad i've told the younger ones..when i come back to hand my donation..i wanna hand it to Flag comm 07 who r Flag comm 08..the donation shall be a concerted effort of class of 2007..n tt shld make a difference to get the shield..

Rag was a sweet victory..Muslim got the awards he wanted..our float and mechanism was so obviously outstanding compared to the Faculties..in fact it can match with the halls liaox lo..i'm so proud of the Rag comm. Kudos to xiao bai and hui xuan auntie..

special thanks to my lil NEMOs as well..i guess my crying bug for Rag and Flag was successfully implanted to u guys..but u guys have done well..once again i'm telling u Nemos..we got wad we set out to achieve..we've done our best..we dun have to worry abt wad we could have done better..i'm proud of everyone of u..putting in so much effort and dedication..to live the true spirit of a Rag dancer..i hope after all the persuading and urging to join the Science Rag..u guys did not regret ani moment of it..and like i told the gals..when i'm back in blue next year..i would wanna see every single one of u..n do Science proud..i'll be back..i promise
altho bizad got the shield again..i believe they know tt they dun deserve the shield..they got it bcoz they gave more money..and once again..i'm proud to say i'm from Science..and tt Science made our presence felt once again..no need for mics, biased MC nor big flags..Science is made of our people..our vision..our dream..our mircale..

I'll be back next year..juz like how our seniors supported us..a coordinated effort, a dedicated heart with passion and a concerted effort..the shield will be with us in time to come..

in the loving name of Science

its a first week of school..

2007-07-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

its a first week of school..

oh wells..
after my first day..i was asked to do relieve duties last min..i was fine UNTIl i found out it was for Eng Lang n Eng Lit..n WTH..i have to take classes..
i was really frigthen..really bad bad bad..
but all was nt tt bad after all..
i kept those terrorist quiet..i manage to deliver lessons and made the boys hate me..wahahahahaha

Day 3 and 4 were spent at Teachers Prep Prog.. OMG..i'm thankful to the Lord for sending me to ACS Barker..i have no complains wrt to the students ani more.. barker boys r juz noisy and cannot stop talking..but the course really was enriching and i'm hearten to know tt wad i did on Day 2 was right..it feels veri gd tt instructor said there is a teacher naturally in me.. WAHAHAHA

Day 5 was ok..long day..tiring..when i had to face the sec1s again..n i was in class with them ALONE..my gawd..had to rush ard..n i came back to sch to see sooo much things to do..and also kanna arrow for CIP duties with the boys.. WTH..hiakx

Week 2 of this chapter will be starting again..
sigh..
i cant wait for the National day HOlidays

its a first day of school..

2007-07-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

its a first day of school..

wads the big deal of first day of school tt i have to blog? bcoz i'm nt a student..but official miss cynthia tan
the day began well..
my fave lesson of the day was chapel with the upper sec..the only time of the day i get to hear ALMOST silence..
but things got a bit heated..
case 1
boy: huh not again..another new teacher.. jialat ah..she sure die..
my teacher in charge: aiyo..than you dun bully ppl la..

round 1: boy wins

STUN..

A HOD which was in charge of orientating us told us to let the boys make some noise..n be prepared for a cultural shock in a single sec sch..i thot i was with SOOO many prep talks by so many ppl..even old boys from barker..but it din seem enuff AT ALL!

case 2
boy: teacher, y u so quiet..interaction time..y u nv talk one..
me: when i'm nt talking..i'm listening..so be careful
boy stun n sat down

round 2: I won

case 3
this is too much to describe...
being in Sec 1 normal acad with 40 boys tt r worse than monkeys..i'm impressed tt the teacher is still teaching..a few glares during observation managed to get the boys to talk to me nicely..no way am i going to smile at them..i'll get to see them tmr again..i hope they respect teachers more..

i cant wait for tmr seriously..i'll be seeing my FIRST n ONLY express class..
my stories of ACS Barker wun end juz like tt...stay tuned!

its a celebrity look-alike..

2007-07-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

its a celebrity look alike..

sooo cool..
haha..make me happy nia

its a test IXV...

2007-07-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

its a test IXV...

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you.
And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

You Are a Brownie

Decadent and intense, you aren't for the weakhearted.
Those who can deal with your strong flavor find out how sweet you really are.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

You Are 48% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

its a commencement..

2007-07-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

its a Commencement..

FINALLY..done with my B.Sc. tts all for studying..at least for now..
the journey have nt been easy..no marvellous results to be proud of.. but a fulfilling journey ready to be shared to all my juniors and students in time to come.. the NUS journey was not always smooth sailing.. but a pleasant one tt i have no regrets..
i wanna take this opportunity to thank many who have made this chapter of my life complete..

FOW 2004 OG
- Sokhui, Mei Xuan, Seniors etc. thank you for being the first grp of frens tt i had..esp Sokhui for being the only lecture mate i had fer a gd 1 yr..
SCAMP 2005 Godzilla
-esp Shijun for being a caring AOGL, taking care of odd ends tt i have no idea..
Rag 2005
-esp dancers, costumes gals..thank you for leaving a day in my life tt i can never forget..most imptly thank NUS fer this chance fer me to meet all the Science Club ppl..
26th SCMC
-thank you every single one of u..Shishi, Shiming, Terence, Siowween, Terence Lim and esp Leonie..everyone of u have been supportive..THANK YOU gf..for always being there for me and nt judging me..always understanding n tolerant..
Rag 2006
-thank you Rag comm for believing in the Faculty..thank you for making it a day we cry tog..
DnD 2006
-thank you terence lim for giving me the chance to be the run way manager, DnD coordinator..making many big decisions and have a lil show at Zouk and i would be proud of..n to my dearest comm memebrs..thank you for the times we had to look at the hottest hunks n babes in Science.. thank you ALL pageant contestants for being such friendly warm n enthu freshies and all the cooperation u gave me for OUR show to be successful..
27th SCMC
- thank you for putting up with my naggings and screams..thank you for making an effort to hide "illegal" activities behind my back..
Flag 2007
-thank you Flag comm for pushing thru..in wanting only the best for the Club..for all the time n money u guys put in..THANK YOU..the shield id waiting..
Maths Majors
-thank you every single one of u..for the times we skip lectures..the times we chat in lectures..the times we avoided tutorial answering..the times we had to do our help sheet..the times we hated the PRCs..
2' production crew
-thank you guys for being part of my firt film attempt..it was really an enjoyable time tt we had tog..prob a mod tt we ALL could have a A..IF we din S/U it..haha

jiawei
-thank you for encouraging me thru my exams tho maths really sux..
siang
-thank you for caring n encourgaing me thru those low periods
sweet
- thank you for appearing in my first sem n my last sem..giving me a reason to study hard so tt my mom wun worry..thank you for just being ard me..thank you for taking so much time off for me..thank you for going on graduation trip with me..thank you for coming to my commencement and Rag n Flag Camp..thank you for the lil lil things u do bcoz u need not nv done so..
leonie
- REALLY thank you from the bottom of my heart..u r always there for me..be it for our modules or Science Club..i'm sorry tt 27th took up alot of my time in yr 3..but it wouldnt have worked out without u..thank you for accompanying me thru almost all my lectures..thank you for being a wonderful gf..thank you for all the bitching gossiping care n concern advises..thank you most imptly for allowing me to be ur fren..i've never never go out so much for a gf..thank you for giving me such a chance..
My mom n Dad..
-thank you for sending me thru the U no matter how hard things can be..for tolerating all my nonsense..for understanding my club committments and all the alte nites n stay overs..
my lil sista n elder brother..
-thank you for covering my arsh all these while..for ur encouragment and advise..for all the believe n faith in me..thank you..n gd luck to u 2 for wad u guys have ahead..

ok..this entry is draggy n emo..but this chapter have been a LONG one..thank you..
photos for commencement on the side bar..courtesy of my one n only dearest photographer- sweet(Joe Chen) =)

its a post SCAMP..

2007-07-02T00:05:00.001+08:00

its a post SCAMP..

woah..its been a long long week..SCAMP.."appreciation nite"..sweet's return..n even before SCAMP died..my OG jio-ed fer a gathering..
sooo many things happen..teddy came fer SCAMP "free-lance"..reminded me of the SCAMP last yr..really wished tt time din pass so fast..so fast tt we r going to graduate..
i teared when i saw Rag video AGAIN..nothing new..but ziyang made me realise wad the tears were for..he said..these ppl cry bcoz they feel for the faculty..they love science. as much as i had to admit it..n i always complain abt everything..its true tt i've grown to be attached to the varsity..probably after meeting ppl i din expect to meet..i only have the club to thank for such a wonderful varsity life..but when i teared at the 06 rag dance..i wondered y..n i found an ans..i saw the hard work n the dedication the dancers have..the love they have for the faculty..it really touch the raw spot in me..
not forgetting sweet's return..i skipped sentosa n the bash to receieve my royal highness..lolx..but sentosa n bash can wait..enuff said..
OG outing today was expectedly a smash..right from the start of SCAMP..i din expect to be so involved..but well..i made full use of my time with the last freshies i gonna have..i really must thank Ocean mystic for being wonderful house-mates..thank Alan for bickering with me n making everyone luff..thank SCAMP comm for the wonderful job done..n not least..my OG NEMO..thank everyone fer being part of my last SCAMP..n having a chance to be part of such a bonded n cohesive n encouraging OG..today's outing was great..eating..talking abt rag n flag..as well as the "get-to-know-ur-felllow-nemo" session.. TOTALLY cool tt u ppl r so open..lolx..more to come..i hope everyone would enjoy FOP 2007 n rock Science Faculty like the old ppl did..may the passion continue..

its a lonely day 3..

2007-06-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

its a lonely day 3..

woke up with bad headaches nowadays..
i missed a sms u sent me..i din reply..n i wun get to till 9 days later..sigh..
ya going up the Himalayas..i'm quite sure there is no recep..
bleahx..y din u bring me on the trip tOo?
there is really nuttin to do back in Singapore..i wanna see all those ABNN..i wanna see all those mountains..i wanna see Taj Maha..
>.<

i'm eating less ice cream, drinking less cold water..
the lil project i'm doing helps..
nt forgetting the graduation gift fer my gf..
GF!! dont forget our graduation gift ahx.. =p

its a test for You!

2007-06-17T02:23:00.000+08:00

its a test for you!

to those reading..

Create your own Friend Test here

its a test XIII...

2007-06-17T01:56:00.000+08:00

its a test XIII...

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.
You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's" The True You?

You Are 50% Normal

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

its a lonely day 2..

2007-06-16T18:58:00.000+08:00

its a lonely day 2..

its been more than 24 hrs..this absence is killing me..fer the past mths..the dependence on you has grown so much..the growth amaze me as well..
i cant survive a day without wanting a hug..
i cant survive a day without ice cream..
i cant survive a meal without a drink..
i cant survive a day without penning down my feelings and thoughts.
i cant survive a day without snuggling in bed..
i cant survive a nite without you tucking me into bed..
i had to cry myself to bed..
i was tossing n turning..i told myself i have to take care of myself..but i really cant slp..i told myself nt to cry bcoz tt i promised you..
but u sms me..u made me realised i really miss u..more than i ever do..
i cried so hard..harder than when u first broke me the news..
i thank Lord for the phone call u made to me this afternoon..thank Lord for giving me strength..
its been only the 2nd day..and i regret my decision to let u go..
it doesnt help tt the Science Club ppl r getting irritating..i know tt they dunno abt wads going on in my life..
it doesnt help tt my gf is shopping in BKK..
it doesnt help tt my sis is out all the time..
it doesnt help tt i'm nt working nt schooling..
all i can do now is to cover myself with my blanket..eat icecream..drink cold drinks..watch Lost and prepare a surprise for u when you come back..
how i wished we never came back to Singapore..

its a graduation trip(photos)..

2007-06-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

its a graduation trip(photos)..

its a lonely day..

2007-06-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

its a lonely day..

i guess its murphy's law..
the moment u left..i had to rush to Shatec fer Western Dining Etiquette Workshop..my coordinator told me it was at Batok..bcoz i wanna acc u a lil longer..i had to take a cab..i waited 1/2 hr fer a stupid cab..
den when i reach there late..the lady there told me the guys left..the course is at Orchard area..n mr coordinator ask me to take a cab there..no chance manx..i juz paid 20 bucks..he ask me to take MRT..but i was seriously nt very eager to go ani more..i'm nt in the best of mood..but i thot it will be unpleasant..took a bus down n it poured REAL HEAVY..had to get wet to go to John Little to wait fer mr coordinator to pick me..in a car..when i can juz wait at Robinsons n dont get wet..wth..den my phone went dead on me..
n den my mom msg me n told me she n my sis will be out tonite..no dinner..
darn..when ya ard..they dont go fer dinner..they have to wait till i'm all alone to make me feel even worse..
stupid me..forgot to remind u abt ur slippers..ur cap..ur MALARIA PILLS..cant get the account number rite..nuttin's going rite..
its barely 24hrs n i'm missing you..u said a word from me n u wld stay..but u know better tt i wun ask u to stay..i know u wanted the trip badly..perhaps u r right..absence makes the heart fonder..perhaps its a gd thing tt we spend some time apart..since May..we haven spend more than 24 hrs apart..
i've fallen even deeper into this bottomless pit..i thot i was already at the bottom..
pls dont ever climb out of the pit without me..
i miss u

its a emotional ride 3..

2007-06-14T11:13:00.001+08:00

its a emotional ride 3..

this is a 3rd emo entry i have..but its nuttin to do with jiawei..
its abt u..
u sent me on a emotional roller coaster 10 yrs ago..
i knew this was going to happen more than a mth ago..
but i din expect it to hurt so much tt it feels numb now..
i put myself into a vulnerable position fer 1 mth..
i thot the worse was over..

wads the point of saying sorry..
r u really sorry or r u juz gonna miss me bugging u..
i really dunno wad i shld do..
tell me wad u wan me to do..
i'm really tired..
its not the first time..
when teddy was late to meet me..
u ask me..how impt was i to her..
but apparently..
i'm less impt to u..

u know i wld nt blame u..
u have been having the upper hand since 10 yrs ago..
just dont make me lose faith again..
i hate wad i'm going thru now..
i have to reboot my emotions CPU..
lemme tell u tt everytime i have to restart it..the pit is shallower than it was..
someday..i wld juz jump in and out without having to restart..
dont blame me when the day comes..

its a graduation trip..

2007-06-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

its a graduation trip..

Day 0..5th May 07
had malaria pills and repacked our luggage..malaria pills r some crazy lil pills..i din slp..kina excited n scared..worried tt we miss our flight as well..
thankiew kenjie for giving us a lift..once again from west to east..
there we go.. on TR128

Day1 to Day 5 Chiang Mai -- Daret's Guest House/ Lahu VIllage/Jungle Camp
touched down at chiang mai intl airport..it was raining..but the place is cool and laid back..stayed at daret's guest house..went for a 3D2N trek to Lahu village..was hell of a trek..met the loveliest gal of my life..met 2 british 2 irish 2 kiwis 2 french 1 hot bod irsali and a beer CRAZY thai guide..
this bunch of ppl r hell of a company.. watch Muay Thai..was expecting blood..but din see ani..HAHA..left for Tak to get to Mae Sot by Bus

Day 5 to Day 8 Mae Sot/ Umphang -- Joe's place/Kame Guesthouse/Umphang Hill Resort
met up with PA9 n kinda feel unwelcome..wanted to visit KED..but din wanna be a bugger..kinda disappointed..i really wanna help..we went to umphang to see the region's greatest waterfall..way too costly n nt as magnificant as i thot it wld be..the ride there was crazy..ppl puking along the way..dipped in some hot spring as well!..saw a refugee camp along the way tOo..tt was amazing..i wld like to stay there some day..
we rented a motor to go ard..was fun to explore the place..but i have enuff of walking n climbing!!!! took a bus to bangkok

Day 8 to Day 11 Bangkok/Trat (Ko Chang) - Nature Beach Resort
ate from bad stall at Mae Sot..both of us had tummy upset at Bangkok..u were sweet enuff to find food for the journey..took a bus to Trat to get a ferry to Ko Chang..Ko Chang is BEAUTIFUL..the endless stretch of sea and beach..learnt to have confidence n float on the water..did suntanning..saw naked women..nuttin much here..but the sun the sand the sea..food n sweet..took a bus to Koh Kong Cambodia

Day 11 to Day 12 Koh Kong - Don't even know the name GUesthouse
Arrived at Koh Kong border..so many ppl waiting to rip ur money..we got cheated..or rather ripped off our money..>.< n the room we had was terrible..the place protrayed a very bleak picture of cambodia..

Day 12 to Day 14 Sikhanoville - Green Greeko Guesthouse (AC)
after being ripped off..we decided not to give a chance..we actually walked from the pier to the guest house area abt 3km with our backpacks..the motorbike taxi drivers din believe us..but we had to show them wad scouts n guides r made of..but actually..we nearly died..my sandals spoilt AGAIN..but the aircon room was all worth it..was a DVD junkie fer days..haha..totally spoilt with room service..went on a island hopping trip not knowing tt its a snorkelling trip..n the mask n snorkel was lousy tt made me scared n struggle in the water..i wasnt a gd swimmer to start with..=p but the island was AMAZING..the water was clear up till my shoulder..i din venture further tho..i'm a bad swimmer i have to say..i got totally COOKED tt day..i din expect to get tan mahx..met canadians, austrians and some bimbos..left Sikhanoville for Phnon Penh by bus

Day 14 to Day 16 Phnon Penh - Royal Guest House (AC)
the place we HOT..n as usual..we din pay for our taxi n walked to our guest house..=-p i think its veri hard to earn money from us..haha..the places in Cambodia aint as magnificant as those in Thailand..n the weather is freaking hot..left for Siem Reap by bus.

DAy 16 to Day 20 Siem Reap - Royal Guest House (AC)
cheated a Taxi driver..n got a cheap nice place..felt bad abt it..but there was no way to contact the taxi driver..went to ang kor..IT IS HUGE..n hot..not forgetting the kids..n the lil' girl who cried..hiakx..USD$1 meant so much to them..i wished i could help more..went to some schools n visited the sch tt PA8 built..the kids there r so lovable..took a bus to Bangkok

Day 20 to Day 23 Bangkok - Bed and Breakfast Inn(AC)
the journey via poipet was CRAZY..actually on all the road trips..i dont feel gd..i get motion sick easily..shop like crazy at bangkok..n finally got to eat the mango sticky rice again..love it..jap food is SO cheap..but we r on a budget..arghx..i was shopping alone at MBK..Bomb blast at Hat Yai..had to change plans..so booked a flight back from Krabi..left for Koh Phangan

Day 23 to Day 29 Surat Thani/Koh Phangan - Mellow Beach Resort
took a night train from bkk to Surat Thani..got ripped off again..but the ride was amazing..Koh Phangan is an amazing island..Pool party..Full Moon Party..the homemade ice-cream..the snorkelling off Koh Ma..omg..juz amazing..got totally wasted..hiakx..met a San Fansico, 3 Canadians 3 British 2 Irish 1 Norwigian..forgot abt our passport until we reach the pier to get to Krabi..

Day 29 to Day 30 Krabi - Ban Chao Fa Guest HOuse
This town is quiet n small..n those guest house is a black shop manx..no comments..juz a nite before we take a boat to Ao Railay

Day 30 to Day 33 Ao Railay - Yaya Resort
finally reached Krabi, Railay...the scenry is beautiful..the limestone cliffs r breathtaking..the beach at the West was so cool..did kayaking..rock climbing..ate BBQ..sun tanning..i'm in love with climbing..haha..thankiew fer introduction it to me ^.^ met Irish, Americans, Brazilians and of coz since Thai Climbing guide..

Day 33 Singapore
Left Krabi Intl Airport on TR189..the plane sounded werid..but glad to be back in Singapore..i wun be back if my bank account aint giving me last call..=x..

this trip was hell of an experience..i wanna climb skate..learn salsa..save money for my next trip..there r so many places i wanna go again..i wanna go Thailand again for sure..wanna go Brazil..wanna go Laos..wanna go New Zealand..i still wanna go Europe..oh manx..i wanna tour the world in 80 days!!!
this is really my trip in summary..less personal more narrative..i'll keep the personal stuff in my lil red paged journal..
pictures to come soon..my hdd is not with me..bear with this essay! =p

its a home sweet home..

2007-06-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

its a home sweet home..

haven been blogging nor online fer ages..everything now seems disoriented..
less than 24 hrs..i'm back at work with sciclub again..sigh..
i really wun wanna come back if i can afford it..
i cant wait fer the nx holidays..
there's too much to talk abt the trip...
i'll find time over the weekend fer pics n travelogue...
for now..
i really enjoyed myself..i have no regrets on the trip..
thankiew to my sponsors..my lil sis..my mom my dad..
thankiew to my travel mate n sweetest ever.. thankiew for being part of graduation trip..
love u all loads..
cant wait to see my gf tho..

Its a beach at Ko Chang..

2007-05-15T19:02:00.001+08:00

Haha..i promised to blog..but the pace of life here is too relak tt i don't feel like doing anything..plus i need to pay for internet..so this is jux a lil preview blogging from my hp..miss ya guys back in singapore..but life is good here!

its a post exams blog 4..

2007-05-02T02:37:00.000+08:00

its a post exams blog 4...

MA3259 was the same as last sem la..wth..haha
but ok..another maths paper tt i can do but cant finish..

n tt concluded my last paper in NUS..in LT26 no less..

LT26 for the last time..

the day was great..i juz ended my celebrations..haha
i went home to get change fer a day with teddy..
we went to do some shopping fer her trip..
and we went to far east for this!

haha..i gotta so admit..the last time i did this was in J2 and it wasnt those kind tt can decor..

as bad in posing as i can be..we messed up most of the shots..haha

but the prefectionist freaks in us resulted in almost an hour in the machine..HAHA...the gd thing is tt there is no time limit..i'm so going back there again..haha

yeah..haha..den we wanted to go to PS to get teddy a coat..after which we had to cross over to The Substation for Singapore Short Film Fest..i tried to get to YMCA den Singapore National Muesum..den stuck..got grass patch..so we decided to cross a grass patch of abt 5 m to get to SMU to walk over..

teddy say..quick get over..so i ran over lo..BUT eEee..the grass so long n its MUDDY la!

haha..den teddy's heels got stuck in the mud..super unglam sia..den we tried to clean up at SMU toilet..haha..hilarious..shall keep tt to ourselves..haha..

den we went to substation..n to Timbre lo..

oh well..the bill came up to 100 plus..haha 2 mad lovers at timbre=HUGE bill..

but i enjoyed the night totally..bcoz sweet came to close the night nicely tOo =)

its a emotional ride 2..

2007-04-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

its a emotional ride 2..

thanks sweet..today was great fun..
i think its definately worth not studying n spending the day with u..
i may be accompanying you on ya off..
but i know better u r accompanying me to keep my mind off..
thank you..u made my day..

i was supposed to be happily blog abt today..
but U spoilt my day AGAIN..
congrats tt u r now officially attached..
n me not doing anithing is threatening..
n i'm no longer a fren..
i shld be giving my blessings n shut up..

y do i always seem to be on the toes of other gals..
i had to change my blog address bcoz of another zealous gal..
i had to lose a good fren bcoz of another intimidated gal..
i chose this path..
i'm going to be a Happy Cynthia..

a brand new Cynthia awaits. coming in june.

its a post exams blog 3..

2007-04-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

its a post exams blog 3..

well well..coding theory went on fine..
i realise i dont really like to check/ talk abt my papers to find out how well/bad did i do for it..

the preparations for HY2207 is disgusting..ok i gotta admit bcoz i was the least interested in this module i din really study during term time..but i really read alot alot alot for this stupid paper..
i dunno how would i fare fer this paper..but i've tried my best..

it din help tt i received an SMS from u before my paper..something in me told me not to read it b4 the exams..but i juz had to..
u told me u r unofficially tog with another gal..my heart sank..
so much abt the whinings to me..abt how i f***ed ur life..
during the whole paper..i had flashbacks of u..
i wonder y am i so affected by tt sms..i'm supposed to be happy for you..
bahx..
3 yrs 9 mths of my life perhaps was impt to me but i refuse tto acknowledge it..
u said we shld go back to being gd frenz..i hope so..
i think wad sweet say is right..
one fears wad one's capable of..
i know i recovered from the r/s fast..i'm selfish and wanted ur love as well..
but u got back fast as well..
i feel crappy..

i tried to sleep thru it..

when i woke up..my heart sunk again..my EPT results arrived..
i passed the Written component..failed the oral..its kinda expected..
but this would mean that i have to teach on probation fer a year before going into NIE..
sharks.
i'm really not ready to teach..n..i wun have eileen n yexiang as my classmate..
hiakx..i can extend my thailand trip liaox..

today is not a good day..
nothing is going right today..
i wanna cry myself to slp..i wan someone to acc me to keep my thots occupied..
bahx..

on a hind note..
congrats to my lil sis..
i'm proud of her..
she got her first choice fer NUS and NTU..bizad and comm studies..

its a blissed study session..

2007-04-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

its a blissed study session..

teddy had paper today..i'm left alone to study fer MA3218 Coding Theory..
i know i wun study at home..i could have studied at KAP..
but i decided to go somewhere else instead..

i've been contemplating to go there fer a long time..but i decided against it..
well..at least today i found an excuse to..

studying alone is boring n unmotivational..
BUT

check this out! chocolate! haha.. this sure perked me up to study.. came juz in time when i'm going to give up the PYP..bahx.. it feels good to be pampered.. but to think of it..this is the first time someone bought sth to motivate me to study..all these 10 yrs..to think of it..no one ever buy anithing to motivate me lehx.. crapx.. onli at my last exams..

well..it sure made my day.. but the thing is.. look at my disgusting helpsheet and my table of notes..i'm not sure if tts y a gal kept looking at me.. or was it another spy of his again..but i'm quite sure tt not bad looking gal kept looking my way n when i bring my notes to eye level..she peered to look at wad i was studying.. hiakx..i bet she wun understand anithing..

oh well.. for the strawberry choco..i'll work hard fer tmr's paper!

thank you once again for the choco..=)

its a post exams blog 2..

2007-04-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

its a post exams blog 2..

bahx.. PR2202 was hell..
like wad teddy said..its maddnes..
i really hope i can pass..
hiakx..i really dont wanna retake the semester again..
i wannt teacher! i wanna get pay..
bahx..
but at least i spent the rest of the day doing things i like..
watching movie n spending time NOT studying after a trashy paper is gd thearpy..
well..2 down 3 to go..
cant wait fer timbre..cant wait fer the thailand trip..
BAHX

Its a random shot..

2007-04-23T17:05:00.000+08:00

Jux me..

K800i

*edit: test blogging from my HP so tt i can blog from thailand trip to keep teddy updated!*

its a post-exams blog 1..

2007-04-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

its a post exams blog 1..

Last Exams in NUS began with a..
phone call..haha

actually not one but a few..
first time i morning call teddy to wake her to exams..bcoz she stays further than me i dont normally wake up to call her..but i did..
first time i get a call in the morning from sweet..it really made my day..

i woke up to a sumptous lunch by my mom..rice, bak gut teh and snow fish..(thanks alot..i din go hungry in the LT)
den took a ride to sch to meet teddy..

Today's paper was GEK2020 Introduction to Film Art..

yesh..as i earlier blogged..i S/U-ed it n i regretted..
tt regret deepened..i spotted 3 topic.. Wong Kar Wai's In the Mood for Love, Orses Welles' Citizen Kane and Eric Khoo's 12 Storeys.

n guess wad...
ALL 3 came out in one way or another..

First excerpt was from ITMFL..the most satisfying essay i've written in a LONG while..
2nd excerpt was from Citizen Kane..as expected with a ladies' sixth sense of me n teddy..but wasnt as satisfying essay bcoz it was onli the ending scene..
Last question was about how different narratives in a film brings abt the ideas n theme of the film, eg 12 storeys has 4 stories, how there r parallel, contrasting or juxtaposed.

this could had been an A-graded paper..
hiakx..its so fated that i dont get As in NUS..
i missed an A bcoz of S/U in SSA2207 Government and Politics of Singapore and now another one bcoz of S/U again..i could have 3 As instead of juz 1..wad am i doing?

den again..its all bcoz i lack confidence in essay papers..but actually..i do pretty well for my essays papers..lit..policitical science..SHIT..i think i'm in the wrong faculty..
i should have gone to Arts..do a combined major in Maths and Political Science and a minor in English Literature..
Right..tt doesnt sound like Cynthia..blahx

another gd start to exams as this...
NUS actually fixed another wooden plank to the LT tables so tt we got more table space for exams..how sweet of them ..
but i wonder..where they store all these planks n how much work was done to label them n fix them on one by one..poor souls.. i guess Science Club taught me the logistics part of every thing tt one does.. =)

rite..on my way back..

i cant help but to take a photo of this sight..
wad the hell is this toopuid blanglah doing..
its raining so freaking heavily tt the place is flooded..n he's still using the spray to wash the floor! wasting my mom's money to pay to HDB for cleaning the place..n wasting water lahx! felt like going up to him n ask him if he know wad's he doing sia.. TOOPUID ehx..

i love today..i dunno y..but i feel happy..like really happy..haha
a gd exam complete = happier cynthia

may God Bless for a happier Cynthia tmr..bcoz i need it more tmr..
Amen

its a falling in love..

2007-04-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

its a falling in love..

teddy says..falling in love comes in a package..
being affected by the lil lil things tt the opp party does..
here am i..tho independent as i thot..
being affected by my dearest love one..
ah!! i'm affected by my gf..

i dont wanna be a lesbian..but yesh..i'm affected by my gf..
i gonna miss her during our graduation trips...

i'm sorry gf..

i'll be a better bf..

its a 2'..

2007-04-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

its a 2'..

well..it started 4 mths ago..me n gf dearest decided to take yet another module together..the decision GEK2020..took me forever to persuade her..but i guess its a gd choice..

here comes along JS n ken..n we decided to go a film tog instead of a boring essay..

i decided to S/U the module since i had extra S/U..
i felt totally wrong abt the test..n so i thot..luckily i S/U the mod..

ken came up with the original idea..n we had to find props, settings actors etc etc..
and after 3 days of filming..HOURS of editting..thousands of songs selection..
2' (reads: 2 feet) was borned..
the film premier was kinda disappointing..
n i was worried..i thot..darn..i'm not going to graduate bcoz of this darn module..(and of coz the tupid history module)..

den...

test reads: B+

film reads:
Dear All from '2'',
Your grade and comments are as follows:
Grade B+/A-
The film is nicely nuanced and carefully constructed in terms of costumes and props. I appreciated the use of matching shoes to indicate a new coupling, and the choice of ankle bands to differentiate and identify characters. The body language as exhibited by the calves and feet are good in portraying the different stages of the relationship from initial courtship, to a more sexual relationship. I do feel in some ways that the film went on for too long and while I appreciated the use of various pop songs to suggest the particular stage of the romantic relationship, I thought perhaps 3-4 songs would have been enough. I did feel too that the film had one thing to say and kept repeating that, so although I was entertained and amused, I started to hope something else would happen in the narrative.
I am however, very impressed with the ending where the shoes ‘see’ one another from under the banner while the wearers remain more or less obscured from one another. It is a good shot and an excellent moment, worth commending.

Sincerely, Adeline

WAH!!!

WTH..y did i S/U this module!! !#%(%^($#%*
i could have get a B+ easily n pull up my CAP..tho it doesnt make a diff to the deg i'll get..
but y i always S/U modules tt r essay based bcoz my brother thinks i CMI..
onli to realise..i got the arts flair in me tOo..gRrrrrr...

aniway..film making was a remarkable experience..
it wun be the same without js(director), ken(camera man), gf teddy(female lead), joe(male lead)
this is my first film..prob the last..
thank u to the special someone fer being part of it..
(shall keep credit rolls private as the deserving ppl alreadi got their share..)
nevertheless..
its yet another chapter in my life tt i wun forget..
THANK YOU..

its a load of my chest..

2007-04-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

its a load of my chest..

AH!!!
thankiew teddy gf..for listening me rattle non-stop..
i feel better..thankiew fer wasting ur studying time on ur owner ^^
life is gd with teddy..
LOVE U LOTX..
MUACKx

study hard..we got lots of things to do after exams..
jiayou!

its a BEN n Jerry's free cone day!!

2007-04-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

its a BEN n Jerry's free cone day!!..

everyone feels happy when they eat ice-cream..
din know there is such a nobel cause behind free cones day..
*by setting ur aircon to 25 deg..from 22deg..u can save 300 bucks n save the world*

bahx..but my ice cream fell onto the floor with the curse of teddy..>.<

its a marriage age..

2007-04-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

its a marriage age..

this is kinda crap..but was browsing Friendster bcoz i really dont feel like study..
here it goes

You know when your birthday is, but
how old should you really be getting
married? (Just put an x next to the
things that apply to you.)

[ ] know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a
calender.
[x] I own more than one credit/debit
card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my
car.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to
say than my friends.

total: 5

[ ] I show up for school/college/work
every day early.
[ ] I always carry a pen in my
pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[x] I have never gotten completely
trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at
least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means
without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a
week.

total: 5

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another
language.
[ ] When I say I'm going to do
something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without
being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[ ] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.

total: 5

[x] can spell 'experience' without
looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know me by
name.
[ ] My favorite kind of food is take
out.
[x] I have gained weight since
middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up
is get caffeine.
[ ] I can go to the store without
getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the
first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.

total: 5

[x] I have realized that the weather
forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place
of employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party.
[ ] I have realized that no one will
take you seriously unless you are over
the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] I have more bills than I can pay.
[ ] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all
night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a
while.
[x] I can read a book and actually
finish it.

total: 5

Overall: 25

add up all the number and repost this
as: "MY marriage age is ..."

quite cool..i wld like to get married at 25..HAHA..

its a great day..

2007-04-13T02:40:00.000+08:00

its a great day..

today was meant to be a one on one study date with teddy..but SOMEONE had to come along n i had to be a slowing tungsten n had to take a 40mins bus ride to vivo >.<

some other pics.. last day of school life in NUS with leonie..our last official lessons as UNDERGRADs..

i'll so miss teddy..school will never be the same without teddy..sobx..thankiew teddy..u r everything i can ever wish for..nv expected such a CLONE in NUS..*hugs*

its a test X..

2007-04-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

its a test 10..

You Should Honeymoon in Europe!

You are a traditional romantic at heart...With a taste for fine wine, muesums and beautiful walks.You and your sweetie should get romantic in a cafe in ParisOr get a Eurail pass - and see as many cities as possible!
Suggested destinations: Paris, Venice, London, Greece

http://ynr.blogthings.com/whereshouldyougoonyourhoneymoonquiz/">Where Should You Go On Your Honeymoon?

its a friendster testimonial..

2007-04-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

its a friendster testimonial..

its was juz so simple..so out of the blue..

JaSmInE-QiUxIa
Posted 6/4/2007
Hello Senior Cynthia! how r u? juz now saw ur friendster so popped by to send my regards. Wow! time flies & we have oredi grad frm ctss a few yrs le. Anyway how have u been? r u working oredi? do take care & if free do drop me a reply. Take care! :)

my dear gal guides still remember me..they have been thinking abt me..wad have i done for them? i realised i've neglected many of my friends bcoz of BGR..many start keeping their distance bcoz i close my doors everytime i'm attached..
these ppl whu have me somewhere in their mind r all left out fer my 21st birthday party..instead the ppl who came/invited were "political" moves.. arghx..i hate myself..
after this exams..this trip..after my first pay..i shld be doing sth for the listed ppl..
1. Daniel - Godbrother fer the longest time
2. Hanbin - first bf who nv fail to keep up with me
3. 11th Coy west guides - proud gals of 11 coy west
4. 2B1 - where the teachers hate most.. wadever happen to zirong, kaiyi, anne, freddy, yinghui..
5. 61A - the elite class tt tried to alienate me
6. S12/13 - spent 2 yrs in the rat race with these ppl..
7. ODACians - ara, x.ping, shy, kim, kun, lulu, etc..
8. Godzilla - the bunch of ppl tt allowed my nomination as best OGL..haven done anithing fer them since..

i'm seriously not a good fren..arghx..
i really hope 10-20 yrs down the road..teddy and the other not listed here wun be here..n the list here gets shorter..

its a test IX...

2007-04-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

its a test 9...

You Are 2: The Helper

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What Number Are You?

its a test VIII...

2007-04-02T03:24:00.000+08:00

its a test 8..

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.
Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.
Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.
Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.
Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.
Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.
Best color to attract mate: Green
Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

its a recharging moment..

2007-03-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

its a recharging moment..

its tiring..
its so tiring..
independent..
dependable..
cheerful..
gd at cheering ppl..

to my gf..
to my bf..
to my closer frens..
to the ppl in sch..
to the ppl at home..

its damn tiring..

who really ask me to stop..
who really allow me to stop..

i nid to recharge myself to move on n be the 'model' Cynthia..

who really takes an effort to take note abt me..
to know tt i'm always putting up a brave front..

not even a guy tt spent 4 yrs with me..
not even mom tt knew me ferever..

i wanna be a Cynthia tt can cry when i get scolded..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can get everything tt i wan..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can buy everything i wan..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt can idle n be inefficient..
i wanna be a Cynthia tt is not so responsible, disorganised and has no plans fer the future..

but can i really be like tt?

Cynthia is being sterotyped..
n i gotta live up to the name of Cynthia..

its freaking freaking tiring..

teddy tagged me earlier to say abt weird things abt Cynthia..
i think if i really think abt it..i think the list wld nv end..wld nv end..

i cant even remember the last time i din have to live up to my own name..
i was model Cynthia the day i had memory..
sometimes i cant wait to return to the arms of the Holy Father..
till den i can rest..

its a test XII...

2007-03-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

its a test 7..

Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.The tensions and stresses that you are experiencing at this time are, you feel, beyond your capabilities or your reserves of strength to cope with. You feel inadequate and in a constant state of anxiety.You are attempting to escape from this situation into a secure environment in which you may be permitted to relax and recover, free from outside interference.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

its a test XI....

2007-03-18T00:38:00.001+08:00

its a test 6...

Your Score Summary
Overall, you scored as follows:
89% scored higher (more stupid),3% scored the same, and 8% scored lower (less stupid).
You are 8% stupid. This means...You are our next Einstein. Wow! Keep up the great thinking.

its a emotional ride..

2007-03-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

its a emotional ride..

its all my fault tt i cause myself to be in such a state..
sigh..
i guess wad i said killed it all..n its really over..
i thot i wanted it..but its not as easy as i thot it was..
i'm beginning to miss u..my tears still flow bcoz of u..
y din i learn from my lesson n make life easier for myself..

p.s: congrats on ur first time pass..i realised i do miss you..

its a STRESSFUL WEEK..

2007-03-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

its a STRESSFUL week...

i wanted to rant abt everything..
but i guess its all over..
don't nid to talk abt it..

bottomline:
i cry to destress
i'm SICK of the club
i do nid personal time
i'm easily affected by him BIG time
i'm thankful for a understanding bear tt knows tt i'm freaking stressed out without asking..(love ya teddy)
i'm beginning to understand lil pleasures of life he subtly teaches me

its a test X....

2007-03-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

its a test X...

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

dunno how true this is tho...comments?

its a tagged..

2007-02-26T03:34:00.000+08:00

its a tagged...
i'm being tagged for the first time... for quite some time..but i dunno how to reply...
here it goes..

This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game..
Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

Here we go, 6 weird things:
(1) I like to create mathematical equations with numbers on carplates. And I get really engrossed if they don't work out. For example, 4625: 4 + 6 = 2 x 5. (this comes from my teddy..i nv told aniway abt the carplate thing..bcoz when someone luffed at me b4..i guess is wad connects 2 yr3 maths major)
(2) I dont really like meeting new ppl..i really dunno wad to say or how to approach someone..i get real nervous
(3) I don't dare to sing into mic..in front of other ppl..but i actually like to sing ehx..
(4) Everytime i take IC photo..i'll keep one of the series...this is to remind me how much i've changed
(5) I always cry when i watch TV even if it was a happily ever after scene..i get touched pretty easily, but no one knoes =X.
(6) i wanna dress up..but i dun dare to wear out..(inferority complex at work sticking to tees n jeans=) )

people whom i tagged:-
hmm...i think abt it..i dun really have much ppl to tag..its a visious cycle if i ask teddy..
so i think there is onli my lil sis, Mr KCS, Mr KJS, Mr MA3111, the boy and Mr Gio Khaki..but not much ppl know of my BLOG >.<

quite pointless fer this tag..but hmm..to entertain my dearest GF!

*feeling quite blue on a rainy day*

its a thinking day/founders' day

2007-02-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

its a thinking day/founders' day...

HAPPY THINKING DAY to all my sista guides..
HAPPY FOUNDER'S Day to all my brudder scouts..

altho today was quite disorganised...
i enjoyed my day totally..
thankiew teddy...

i enjoyed myself.period.

its a CNY post 1...

2007-02-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

its a CNY post..

WOW..this weekend passed juz like tt!
i had a gr8 gr8 week..totally speechless...
things were good on 13th, 14th..15th ok..
den eve was reunion dinner plus river hongbao..
初一
dolling up like a lil princess..rushing to grandma hse..rushing to granddad hse..its gd to talk to my eldest cousin..knowing tt he's getting married..buying a flat etc etc..
初二
thank you to the band of brother for giving me so much face to come over last min fer a mahjong quickie..thank you to my mom for whipping up a simple dinner..thank you to ivan n his mom for hosting the ctss ppl..i love to catch up on wad the guys r doing..thank you to the band of brothers again for jo-ing me for midnite mahjong..really a long time since i saw stan..n had such a gr8 time with u guys..
初三
thank you sweet..the things i have to thank you for n say sorry is too much to count..thank you "ah boon", "director" and female lead n family for the wonderful day...tho it was a long tiring day..i think every bit of it was deserving..every bit of it was memorable..esp. my first attempt in creating a gingko nut record..to those reading..i have a challenge..eat more than 30 gingko nuts with dried longans and i'll treat u to..err..more gingko nuts!! bring it on!! another record..eating 3 whole fish..haha..i really enjoyed the day..getting lost n breaking records n creating memories..

4 days juz went past me..
nx 4 days...
tmr..project + tuition + house visiting
thu..sentosa retreat with my dearest bestie bear and hopefully the band of brothers..+tuition
fri..filming AGAIN + Alumni reunion dinner
sat n sun...hang on..its GEk2020 readings..HY2207 readings and lecture revision..PR2202 revision and CA..MA3218 revision for 3 chapters and 4 tutorials...MA3259 revision for 3 Chapters and ALL tutorials...
OMG...

Its a happening last sem in NUS..i think the best one so far..
i'm lovin' it!

Signing out with love..
the girl..

its a random post ...

2007-02-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

its a random post..

i realise 27th r a bunch of fun loving ppl when there is good..
spend 100 bucks today on 27th.. its satisfying seeing them being so happy..talking rubbish..disturbing each other..thanking top 5 after a happy meal..
the kinda a satisfaction i hope to get from my students in future..
the kind tt go "thankiew ms tan..i passed my math"
food was gd..company was gd..dessert was gd..

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i miss 26th..come tmr i'll be meeting part of 26th..i wished more would come..i cant wait fer the 23rd to come...den i would get to see 26th n most of the alumni n of coz Dean..i melted when Dean saw me outside his office n said "hi cynthia"..haha went weak in my knees n mumbled a "hi prof tan" haha..he's such a charismatic man..i hope my future husband ca match up..lol..

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history test today sux...big time..i'm totally not prepared for a history test after 8 yrs..i'll be glad is i dont get zero..

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thankiew bear for the wonderful pair of earrings..the first handmade item for me and me only! i gonna wear it for the new year..so watch out!

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damn tired..week long of social activities...i nid a break...

its a valentine's day

2007-02-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

its a valentine's day report..

first time in a long while..
u asked me out..not me planning..
Holland Village N.Y.D.C.. nothing surprisingly abt the choice of location...
but surprised tt the thot came
thankiew...

first time in history..
does anione bring the gf out on vday to see him cut hair?
haha.. u just did it.. =)

plus other lil sweet things along the way..
this vday has been one of the most fulfilling day i had recently..
thankiew for all tt contributed..

to my lil teddy bear..
Happy BF/GF/BEST FREN/BEARY Day! *hugs*

love,
-the girl -

its a teachers thing..

2007-02-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

its a teachers' thing...

its touching n motivating to see such website these days..
juz as i was reconsidering teaching for flying or fer privae sector..

this is to all teachers n ppl whu dreams to be one...
http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,123204,00.html
http://www.teachermovie.com

its a test IX....

2007-01-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

its a test 4...

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Financial Situation - 76.9% 2. Confidence - 66.7% 3. Open-Mindedness - 63.6% 4. Flirtiness - 62.5% 5. Spirituality - 61.5%	1. Temper - 62.5% 2. Appearance - 55.6% 3. Arrogance - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid guys who are only interested in your money. Confidence - You are sure of yourself and confident of your abilities. Displays of confidence go a long way when attracting a date. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys. Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities. Spirituality - Your spiritual side brings you peace and balance, and keeps you grounded. This is attractive, as you can help reinforce this quality in other people.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Temper - You need to work on controlling your temper. Don't let your anger get the best of you. A calm and rational persona is important when dating. Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a guy's attention. Arrogance - You are a bit full of yourself. You need to practice a little humility now and then, as arrogance can be a turn-off.
Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz by Dating Diversions

its a test III...

2007-01-31T01:21:00.000+08:00

its a test 3..

Your dating personality profile:

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.

Your date match profile:

Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Liberal
2. Big-Hearted
3. Stylish
4. Athletic
5. Adventurous
6. Romantic
7. Sensual
8. Religious
9. Intellectual
10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Athletic
3. Religious
4. Romantic
5. Practical
6. Traditional
7. Wealthy/Ambitious
8. Conservative
9. Stylish
10. Intellectual

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its a rumbling post..

2007-01-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

its a rumbling post..

its been a long time since i last blogged..juz dont feel like blogging..
oh well..a recap on year 2006..got my first A- in NUS..went to bangkok with my parents but did nt really enjoy the shopping experience with my mom's constant nagging..went fer SWEAT n my first time n wind surfing..got sick sick n more sick..i think i went to the doctor more than i did in 11 mths..den came jane my lil sis bestie..stayed with us fer almost 2-3weeks..the time she was ard..the house was got hyped up..now tt she's back in canada..the house is so quiet again.. JANE!! come back soon to play monoploy!!

2006 xmas was one of the best i had..stayin with "the boy", meeting up with ppl, having chalet with 27th..ppl ard me is gr8 tho the weather SUX.. also started to read up abt europe fer grad trip with teddy...

fast forward to 2007..i really hope i can go europe fer my grad trip n get a lil car..get into NIE n get the passion fer teaching back..seems to be losing it..seems to lose passion for the things i'm doing..even the club..doing thigns for the sake of doing and putting up a brave front bcoz i'm supposed to be veri zai..n suppose to love the club n motivate the club...but...i juz feel like travelling ard the world myself or with a fren or 2.. oh well..holidays r in plan but work have to be done..i hope i can get 2 more As..haha..veri tan xin ahx..i dont think its possible bcoz i'm S/U-ing 2 out of 5 mods..of which the remaining is 1 fac n 2 maths modules..which impossible to get A..so my cap..hiakx..

Been talking alot to teddy..its really been great to have someone to talk to at nite..someone tt loves the scrapbook i made..someone tt behaves like my clone..haha..thx teddy..

i think i'm having mood swings..happy at a moment..sad at another..the only thing tt i'm engross in is reading abt london..n searching for tuition assignments tho not teaching them..being physically unfit makes it worse when i feel tired giddy n puke-ish all the time..arghx...life sux at this moment..saving up fer europe n car means saving money n not shopping..so retail therapy cant be used..n readings r piling up...arghx arghx..

SOMEONE DO SOMETHING!!!

Sometimes i wonder..wld me nt replying calls immediately deserve a loud reprimand..no matter how excited i am to share or how much i wish to chat...wld instantly be reduce to disappointment..n bring tears..i really dun like the nite bcoz this wld always happen..

EDITTEd: ignore me..the positive ones r still positive..but the negative ones..juz...hmm...err...PMS-ing!
(gals best ans to all probs)

its a test II..

2006-12-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

its a test II...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

its a holiday review...

2006-12-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

its a holiday!

yeah..i'm finally back after a week..
exams ended on the 2nd..after some packing of my lil sista's books tt strained my back..n some re-organising of my mom's storeroom..den off to BANGKOK!!
day 1: 7th December 06
took mrt to airport..realised tt there is no sky train connecting to budget terminal..we have to take a shuttle bus..carrying the luggage up n down..OMG totally not what a first class terminal wld be like.. den ppl rushing fer every single thing..OMG..when the gate was open..those aunties were RUNNING to the gate *faints* to get my mom a gd seat..i ran with them..n queue where the aunties were heading but was told to take another queue..which i orderly walk thru..but those aunties went under the rails n cut my queue @#@$%^&%@..den my mom was making alot of noise abt y some were let in first..after a long while den they said tt there was advance for family with young children n adults..when tt means 8 adults to 1 baby..tsk tsk..arrived at bkk intl airport..no sign no nuttin..so super crowded..finally got to the taxi stand..dont understand y there was 2 queues..everything is in thai..omg..how to be attract tourist there like tt?!?! den finally got a cab..n tt driver dun understand english n dunno where we wanna go?!?! ok..finally he knows where n we r stuck in a massive jam..which is juz the traffic light..but the hotel was pretty gd, comfy n well located..den off to MBK fer dinner n shopping..nuttin much tt i fancied..but dinner was ex when we hit the fifth ave international food court with live band..den mad shopping by my mom with cheap cheap bags n shoes..199baht onli..i wanted to go to tokyu where teddy bear asked me to enjoy myself..but it was closed... @#@%$(& i thot the night was still young n wanted to head to suan lum..but my mom said it was late at 9pm..arghx..den off to the taxi stand..n tt idiot driver dun wan to put on the meter but we bargain fer 80baht back to the hotel..
day2: 8th december
my mom made us get out of bed at 6:30am bkk time! like omg..like on tour..like c'mom so early..but nevertheless we got up fer buffet breakfast quite like singapore style..i was the tour guide of the whole trip..planned fer river trip down chao praya river to the Grand Palace n Wat Pho..den shopping at platimun..the river tourist boat was at 9:30am on first boat..but with my KS mom..we got onto the BTS (read:singapore MRT)..reached the pier at 8:30am but i decied to cut cost n take the river taxi tt cost onli 15 baht..down to the Grand Palace..a kind thai lad told us tt Wat Pho was closed fer onli Thai fer prayers for the King's bday till abt noon n so is the Grand Palace..he told us of the Lucky Buddha temple and another temple n a Gem production place by the government..which was allowing each tourist to get a piece of gem in line with promotion thai tourism..his classic line "tut-tut waiting waiting for you" lolx..for live demo call me yar! den he help us stop a tut tut n fer 100baht, we got a half a day trip..when we hit lucky buddha temple, we met another thai guy tt could speak thai tt gave us a econs lesson abt thailand..n he told us of the gem production house tOo...when we hit the gem production house..being gals..my mom my sis n myself bought gems..pendents n earring..cheap cheap..haha classic "madam..get sth gd" lol..bought some for my grandma n auntie tOo..den the teochew guy tt said tt their company will provide us with a free aircon van n a english speaking tour guide..great! no more squeezing on the lil tut-tut..den the guide aka coffee bought us to wat pho n grand palace..he was super nice..we asked him lots of qns..n he told us alot abt the place n thai history..v v v v interesing..its gd tt he's been to singapore n is an alumni of standford uni..he brought us to watergate open mkt after advising me against platimum bcoz its aircon n more ex..but the place he gave us was super hot n messy..dont know my orientation there..nuttin much there fer me to buy..onli my mom n sis..i onli got a pair of kitty heels..sigh..den he said he'll bring us to suan lam!! yeahie..n to the beer garden fer dinner..dinner was better with the live band as well..but still with the spicy spices..but shopping was great...lol..got my rattan bag..n got alot of baragain my omm n sis got quite a bit..den back to the hotel..great day for my knowledge abt thailand..really an eye opener..super lucky day with coffee's appearance..
day3: 9th decemeber
CHATUCHAT!!!!my frenx n bro asked me to take a cab there..but afraid of the jam n non-metered taxi..my mom n i decided tt we shld take the train again..one thing abt bkk is tt their ticket has their map printed on the tix..which is veri tourist friendly..we reached there at abt 9am..n did non stop shopping! woohoo..BUT..i din see alot tt i like..onli got a few tees fer myself..fer my bro..a skirt n a shorts for myself.. shorts for miko..my sis bought sooo sooo amny things..i din even bother to buy stuff to bring back fer my frenz..as thinking..everyone ard me have been to bkk except me..no point buying anithing..hiakx..but we drank a lemon juice n eat kuay teow there..which my bro said was veri brave..haha bcoz of the hyigene..but well..nuttin happened to me..along the way my mom was nagging n complaining abt the heat n nuttin much to her fancy..den quite irritated me..but my sis was quite persistent on getting her stuff..so after she was done..BUT I WAS NOT was cut short the trip n headed back to the hotel..we stop along the way for a thai massage which was not gd..din feel shoik at all..hiakx..den head back to the hotel to dump the stuff n went to pantip it mall to get the thai kayboard sticker fer my brother..den to platimun fer some shopping..again..my mom n sis bought stuff..but juz was i was going to give up on bkk..i saw a nice dress fer teddy's bday..but it was ex..when i really sianx..den i saw bag charms!!! i love them la..but i was broke..but i paid fer the transport most of the time..onli bought 1..its soo soo cheap lehx..100baht bcoz we bought 5..i wanted to buy more to sell online..bcoz i almost bidded fer sth identical fer S$23! omg..but no lo..nx time i go i'll buy tt..haha..aniway we left to go to central world plaza to look fer my brother's levis, but it was too ex..n we headed back..i wanted to shop more de..but the shops were closed..oh yar..dinner was at platimum food court..sooo nice the kuay chap..n the thai dessert..mango sticky rice..yum yum..
day 4: 10th december
my mom said she was tired..say if i wanna shop i go myself..den i told her we r heading back to MBK fer her fave 199 stuff..she was like..ok ok faster go fer breakfast..den we went there..lol..again the place was closed bcoz we were early..the guard there said tt there is another gem produciton house nearby..we went there lo..since its nearby..den the gems there were so much more ex la! but my mom bought some souvnirs..but i think ppl at my age wun wan elephant keychains liaox rite..so i din buy lo..again my sista bought things la..when we hit MBK i told myself to get a 60L backpack else we wun have enuff luagge fer my mom n sista's shopping..got a backpack at 800 baht..think its quite ex la..but nvm lo..i was happy its within my budget n i can go fer my graduation trip liaox..haha..den my mom finally bought her stuff n is happy..but my dad cld nt find a wallet..can he tt he's disappointed..nvm..i decided to get my dad a wallet fer x'mas..i know wad style he like liaox..i going to get it at all cost bcoz i din get him anithing fer his bday this yr..n my mom din care abt my dad's shoppping list.. >.< rushed fer duck rice lunch n off back to the hotel..the plane was 16:55 but coffee asked us to leave by 1pm..bcoz of tt my dad din get to find his wallet..n we were waiting fer the airport fer more than an hour..@!#@^ .. den again..the bkk airport has a disorganised system tt's inefficient n not idiot-proof..but being on tiger airways again..the board part of another disgrace of singaporeans..the KS-ism..hiakx..finally got back to singapore..finally got to spend money...bought liqour n wine at DFS n perfume fer siang tOo..finally got home..BUT! tmr got sports camp..*faint
day1 of sports camp:11th december
manage to get myself out of bed..n to school by cab..haha..reached sch n find tt my OG is quite small..but ok quite on..den my buddy OG was late..but they r nice ppl..except fer one..lol..shall nt give names la..but think everyone know whu..went to east coast to "check-in" our tents..i ust say its been a long time since my tents, mess-tin days..we did rafting..n paint war..den it started raining super duper heavy..din really get drenched..but was damn cold..so i went to the tent wanting to get my tee..BUT my tent had collapsed! omg..they brought it into the shelter..but when i opened it..all the bags were swimming in the tent..*faint..once a girl guide, always a girl guide..luckily i used the backpack..n ziplock everything n put on the raincoat for my backpack..everyone else's stuff were wet..onli mine..haha..we were evacuated back to sch n slpt in tutorial room..nuttin much to do..so my OG chatted..n found out tt almost all of us there were connected like friendster..i found the boy's pri sch fren, n my fren's gf there..omg omg..the world is shrinking..haha..den a fren staying near my place gave me a lift back fer bathe, change of clothes n get a new slippers bcoz my old one broke..n back to sch..stayed up quite late to see PA8 team off..there backpacks to cambodia fer the trip was at least 10 times worst than mine..i cant carry them lo..but xiaojun was v nice n ask me to slp n not follow them to the airport..i really KO..
day2:
left fer wind suring at east coast..wooohooo..so fun..but i cant turn 180 deg bcoz the 2nd sail tt i used was super heavy..almost went into open sea..but the surfing club guy swam to me n "drove" me back..hehe.*blissed* i got "driven" ard bcoz i was nt veri gd..haha...but bcoz i was damn tired liaox..everyone onli played 1 hr i play 2 bcoz there was extra sail..lalalala..but i got a bad sunburn on my shoulder..got also got a nice tan on my arms..haha..i like my new colour!,,den we headed to Ang Mo Kio ITE fer high rope elements..hiakx..the elements nt veri high nt veri got kick lehx..i went across the beam balance in record time without holding the rope tt everyone below clapped..haha..n the challenge pole is NOTHING compared to jln bahtera..hiakx..really miss the gd old days..den before we cld finish..it rained..hiakx..spent some time at the student recre area..played bridge with my OG ppl..had some fun..n back on bus to NUS..den we waited fer our bags..n cld nt bathe..n my bag was misplaced..like whu wld dare to lose my bag..got quite pissed abt the disorganised..but wad can i do..the director..my "xiao mei" is so messy de..so when i got my bag back i headed home..got abit pissed n alot tired..i really wanted to go back to have fun with my OG..bcoz they r hell of fun ppl..but the moment i bathe n lay down to rest..i slpt..n by the time i woke up.. 11am the next day..they break camp liaox..
today..after i woke up..supposed to have KAP gathering..but luckily it was canceled..i slpt again..n reply to tons of emails..got pissed also..but nvm la..be in club is like tt de..got hidden sword..gd training fer teaching life..but its gd to be back home..but tmr got spring cleaning liaox..hiakx..n sat sun got OCC n teddy's bday..friday got meeting fer aircon eatery at S16..omg..this isnt a holiday at all la! cant wait to grad n go fer grad trip n let time stop there..

wah..this is a long entry.. bt think shant elaborate ani more..haha...
signing off..

*ps:i really miss you alot..i wished u where with me on the bkk trip n the camp..things wld be different..>< miss ya lots..

its a thankiew n get-a-life post

2006-12-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

its a thankiew and get-a-life post

oh man..today din start well..i woke up at 12 after being not able to sleep ani much longer..i've decided to plan some x'mas stuff fer my family so i turn on my laptop..
here comes jS..
hey ur sista is prom queen ahx!

...blahx...

when's ya last paper?
erm..i have a paper today n one tmr n i'll be free..wad abt u?
ooh..my paper is later at 2:30 wad time is ur paper how come u r not out yet?
mine is 5..(or so i thot)..

den i realised my paper is at 2:30pm as well! and its at KRH!! omg time:1300hour
first thankiew to jS for saving my MA3233 paper tho it din turn out well..

but how u know my sista got prom queen? she din tell me..
oh..jackson told me..he's organising a interjc bash n ask ur sista to help him
!#%^&%(*^^#@#!@#!@#^&*
(i mean fer real i was cursing ma3111, lil girl shld know why)

i swear tt a**hole will nt get near my lil sista..freaking hell..u shld reflect on y u r nt part of 26th n stop thinking of hitting on my sista..this goes to all my frens..its DISGUSTING to even THINK abt hitting on ur fren'z lil sista.. juz get a life k..n ur name is smeared la..stop going ard n make use of ppl to earn tt unrespected dollars..n dont bother calling me in the middle of the nite n whine again..i'm TOTALLY nt interested to clear ur name..GET A LIFE!
once again thankiew to jS for saving my sista's life..

oh well..juz counting the luck i have left to "protect" my lil sis..things like this dont happen all the time..i hope i dont redemn all my karma after today..Thank Lord..

wadever it is.. tmr will be SHOPPING day after 3220..c'mom!!!!!!!!!
BANGKOK! I"M COMING!!!!

its a bathroom thing..

2006-12-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

its a bathroom thing..

quite true to a certain extend..

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

its a irritated 2

2006-11-18T11:40:00.001+08:00

its a irritated 2..

sometimes i really wonder..
where do some ppl find the time n energy to continue to make his presence felt..
where do some ppl find the time n energy to behave like he's in the band-wagon of PAP..
where do some ppl find the time n energy to try to shape the scene..
>.<
y dont some ppl realise tt its tt the era of theirs
y dont some ppl realise tt alot of ppl dont like his presence
y dont some ppl realise tt guys, la kopi n bitching shld nt go together..

i was code-named a frog and gossiped abt..
yesh i know some ppl always say..we onli try to pair up the gd quality ppl..
but c'mon i dont nid u to help me create more ppl coming after me to make me realise i'm of gd quality (lol)
but if u really wan..get me some better quality ones (lol)

but i'm juz irritated at how some ppl behave like LKY
get a life..no one makes a living thru behaving like LKY..
know ur worth n face reality..

i'm happy with my life now..tho its 8 days to my first paper..
i dont nid some ppl to try to shape my life..

*ps: 8 days to first paper!!

its a sad day..

2006-11-11T01:53:00.000+08:00

its a sad day..

girl's left big toe nail is dropping off..at the edge of the flesh already..
*sad* wun have nice toe nail..its the big toe somemore..sooo big..wad if everyone luff at me =~
i wan my toe nail back..
but if my toe nail can get me As tis semester i dont mind trading 5 toe nails for 5 As..hehe
but i still miss my nail..

its a i cant belive it..

2006-11-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

its a i-cant-believe-it...

recieved a phone call last nite

"hi, i'm not confident of my As..i've decided to withdraw..."

i cant believe it at all! she did pretty decent for her prelims maths..
its too stressful, nt confident, i wan to go ploy r all juz excuses! there r challenges in life n things can be done..y did she choose to be a quitter..hiakx..
it most unpardonable of all is her teacher.. damn it..wad a disgusting teacher tt actually allow her to withdraw from A lvl..afraid tt her results may affect the school's ranking! heck it..seriously..even as a tutor i'm trying so hard to keep her and encourage her..y has she given up on herself..her mom..her teacher..wad r these ppl doing?

i'm even more determined to be a gd teacher..
i've been blessed with kind frenx, family and teacheres ard me tt believe in me and encourage me..i'm going to share this kindness, believe n encouragment..
i wun leave any student behind..no one shld be denied of the chance..
i really hope ppl join the teaching force with passion for the students and NOT to prove ur standing, NOT bcoz its a stable income job and definately NOT bcoz its a high starting pay job..NOT a job tt pays for ur uni education..
i promise to dispise those in the teaching force tt do it for money and not for passion..

my heart is aching for the students in Singapore..

its a shit hole..

2006-10-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

its a shit hole..

hiakx..when i'm free..no one comes to me..*growls*
i got meeting tmr, thu, friday and dinner appointment on saturday..
to top it off..everyday is full day..
den tuition kid comes msg me 12 hrs b4 she wans tuition and demands it..
arghx
den flag director comes along to bully me..
den teddy bear helped me with floorplan ready to discuss..cant even find time fer tt..
arghx
HATE THIS LIFE I'M HAVING..
how i wish..
every friday sitting in arts canteen with teddy bear to chat till we miss tutorials and i go back just in time fer lecture..
every day meet the boy for dinner and go home tog..
sit in front of the tv everyday to watch channel 55 and 56 non stop from7pm to 12mn..

I WISHED ah!

WAKE UP STUDY AND WORK HARDER

its a name calculation

2006-10-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

its a name calculation

someone send me this link
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

this is my results (:

There are 17 letters in your name.Those 17 letters total to 74There are 7 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 11
The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.
The expression or destiny for #11:Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.
The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.
The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.
Your Soul Urge number is: 11
A Soul Urge number of 11 means: With the 11 Soul Urge, much of your thinking and interests relate to the abstract, the spiritual, and utopian dreams. You are motivated toward idealistic concepts, and the sharing of your ideas and concepts with humanity. This number is not one that is giving in a material or a practical sense, but rather one who desires to help mankind with a more abstract commodity such as religion, spiritualism, occult studies, or even psychic abilities.
If you possess the positive 11 Soul Urge traits, you have a dream of the perfect world; you are highly idealistic and inspirational. Your inner strength and devotion to your beliefs are extremely strong. You have a very good mind that is especially well equipped to handle the higher, more abstract forms of thought.
If there is an excess of 11 energy in your makeup, you may possess some the negative 11 traits. There is a tendency for the 11 to produce considerable amounts of nervous tension which is bought on by a very high level of awareness. You may be too sensitive and overly emotional. In some cases, these sensitivities and emotions are quite repressed, and this tends to add even more to the sense of nervousness in the makeup.
The strong 11 is not a very practical person because of the extreme idealism; often, there is a degree of self-deception present. There is usually a rather fixed idea of right and wrong held by those showing strong 11 traits, and with this very often is a resulting attitude of inflexibility.
Your Inner Dream number is: 9
An Inner Dream number of 9 means: You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and what to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

quite accurate..

its a irritated..

2006-10-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

its a irritated..

sometimes i really wonder..am i supposed to be blame for everything?
issit me being over-sensitive or ur freaking tone is wrong..
every since that day..i felt tt u changed..
the way u ask abt things..
the way to expect things to be done and
the way you sound like i'm always the one tt is to be blame..
u make urself sound so irksome and i cant help it but to burst out here..

u can go home as early as u wish, study as much as u wan..
but u seems to think tt i dun nid to study n i have to b expected to read ur mind n be a perfect person..

dun worry ppl..i'm fine..juz irritated..dun bother asking whu wad when where how why..

i'm juz irritated..

feeling a li' better

its a party...

2006-10-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

its a party...

1stly wanna apologise for nt inviting everyone..

but my place is onli a HDB =)

2ndly wanna thank everyone whu came to give their blessing..

3rdly wanna apologise to those tt can but did nt witness the cake cutting..

shijun, terence, kelvin,my relatives

4thly wanna thank everyone for their gifts...

the boy..

shijun n gang 4 the winderful pencil

various groups of ppl from 26th SCMC, 27th SCMC, costume comm06, DND'06, KAPgang

grp of frenz from 4c1

not forgetting my darling sista tt help me coordinate, decor, doll up..my mom n dad for all the hussle n love for me..my relatives for making an effort down...

ops..i forgot to thank eugene n yanbin+gang for the 2 bottle of wines..thankiew

lastly wanna thank the boy for the so meanful msg on the guest book..

its a ultimate bad karma

2006-10-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

its a ultimate bad karma

girl was trying to be miss nice girl..but it has proved tt girl got bad karma..
girl happily bought a external HDD and a USB hub fer herself fer bday..went home happily to play with toy..transfer everything from internal HDD (reads: 15GB) over to external HDD so tt laptop can be faster..
girl dumb dumb..onli check fer entertainment stuff, n everything else EXCEPT the most impt folder..den formatted internal HDD..

mr m: normal format or quick format....(tons of qns)...CANNOT retrieve alreadi..gotta pay 10K fer professional to do it..
mr j: dun worry..can type again
mr c: huh can retrieve de mehx?
mr s:can de..slowly find a way
girl: DIE..bad karma all reflecting back to me..

stayed up the whole nite to search fer data recovery software..but all nid to pay at least USD70 to get the software to retrieve everything..stayed up to retype n do print screen..till 6am..

found a software

SLEEP!!!
..3 hours..4 hours..5 hours..missed tutorial..

mr s: i found a crack code
mr k:i got nuttin to do..so i give u a lift to sch so u wun be late fer lecture..
mr sm:lemme help..

in one hour..ALL documents retrieved(tho i din use the crack)...

classic case of karma..when girl do bad things..all bad karma befall on girl..one time GOOD one..
..girl used up all good karma with ppl like mr s, mr sm, mr k.. u know whu u r..

thank you

2006-10-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

its a birthday treat..

boy gives gal a new white puma watch..with a tint of pink!
so nice..so different..thank you..

boy gives the girl a treat..sakura international buffet at Clementi Woods.. new place..$24 for 2 storeys worth of food.. huge varities but no specialisation..still think that Mertitus Marina got the nicest buffet *salivating*..

boy walks gal home from Clementi Wood carrying all her heavy load..gal survive near 4km of walk..wish the walk nv ends..

simple day for a pair of simple boy and gal..

Happy one-day-old dear diary...

its a birthday well-wishes

2006-10-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

its a well-wishes

O.o ..this is quite overwhelming..so many ppl remembered by bday..but i took them for granted n did nt invite them over on saturday but esp. touched.. *guilty*

Oh well..wadever it is..honours list for those who remember my bday b4 1500hours today..

the boy, siang, liling, ting, ivan tan, cuiting, hanbin, shijun,daniel, ziyang, kangyang, john, ivan goh, dex, siwei, siongjie, ronglun, my mom, aravin, candy, alan, shirley, shiming, henree, justin, wynne, valmond, eugene, alvin, zirong, lijing, amanda

thank you..

its a beginning..

2006-10-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

its a beginning...

i really dunno wads the fuss abt 21st bday..
but seriously since its supposed to b fussy..den........

THIS IS A BIG FUSS

bcoz i'm commerating it by this blog..
this blog was born 11th oct 2006.

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