practicum did not start off well by my own standards, but i'm coping better..

well..better enough to get me more observations, I'm keeping my fingers cross..

I really afraid to be disappointed by myself..but well..能入圍已經是一種更定..i'm really comforted by that..

well, bro's application to do his 2nd masters aint going well and he might be heading back b4 we know and mom's on her first long trip overseas.. i've decided not to go bcoz of $$ issue as well as family issues..

yesh..her cancer is back..i feel so sorry for her..she has been suffering all her life..wad can i do for her? sometimes i wished i did medicine instead..y did i take F Maths when i could take bio den..gosh..will my life be different now? all i can do now if to acc her to scans and checkups and try to do things that she like..wad else can i do? i hope she makes it pass 17th dec..

all is well, but i'm getting busier..and am beginning to see the uglier side of work life..stay clear n stay out i hope..i hope everything will turn out fine..i really rather everything pause forever..

perhaps honesty is NOT the best policy..

and perhaps..

keeping everything to myself is a safer bet..

urs truly..

Mrs Chen

started from monday..i has shivering in class..

i thot i juz did not have enuff slp..so i slp instead of eat during lunch hoping not to skip my face math class.

when i woke up..i felt tt i could not move..i told me my fren tt i could make it for math and project work..she asked me to take a cab home or see a doc..

i had to wake 45 mins in ht ehot afternoon sun at the void deck for the clinic to open, altho the nurse ask me to come at 230, they only open their shuttter at 245..i think i almost died..temp reading was 39.9

i had to crawl home myself with my huge file and macbook..i think if anyone were to rob me..i'll juz faint..

tuesday was just as bad..juz past midnite..i started to have sever diarrhea everytime was just coloured water controllable and it went on for at least 10 times.. sweet check me in to NUH A&E juz before midnite..

the drip needle was huge! i had 2 packets of dunno wad..and 1 huge packet of NaCl..had 2 injects and some pills..had another 2 more days of MC..

but i'm supposed to finish 2 projects this week...i feel so bad..friday is no sch day for my combi..how am i going to contribute to my projects...hiakx..i cant collect my ring and pay for my location bcoz the money is in my bank..

my sis and mom also taken ill..tho not as bad as me..

oh god..

but thru this..i know i have someone to depend on when i fall sick nx time..

This is for you sweet..

thank you for everything..

nothing but the best memories..

i know i'm going to be in gd hands..