lost in a fairytale world

copyrighted by caryn
Sunday, April 29, 2007

its a emotional ride 2..

thanks sweet..today was great fun..
i think its definately worth not studying n spending the day with u..
i may be accompanying you on ya off..
but i know better u r accompanying me to keep my mind off..
thank you..u made my day..

i was supposed to be happily blog abt today..
but U spoilt my day AGAIN..
congrats tt u r now officially attached..
n me not doing anithing is threatening..
n i'm no longer a fren..
i shld be giving my blessings n shut up..

y do i always seem to be on the toes of other gals..
i had to change my blog address bcoz of another zealous gal..
i had to lose a good fren bcoz of another intimidated gal..
i chose this path..
i'm going to be a Happy Cynthia..

a brand new Cynthia awaits. coming in june.

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
23:36
Saturday, April 28, 2007

its a post exams blog 3..

well well..coding theory went on fine..
i realise i dont really like to check/ talk abt my papers to find out how well/bad did i do for it..

the preparations for HY2207 is disgusting..ok i gotta admit bcoz i was the least interested in this module i din really study during term time..but i really read alot alot alot for this stupid paper..
i dunno how would i fare fer this paper..but i've tried my best..

it din help tt i received an SMS from u before my paper..something in me told me not to read it b4 the exams..but i juz had to..
u told me u r unofficially tog with another gal..my heart sank..
so much abt the whinings to me..abt how i f***ed ur life..
during the whole paper..i had flashbacks of u..
i wonder y am i so affected by tt sms..i'm supposed to be happy for you..
bahx..
3 yrs 9 mths of my life perhaps was impt to me but i refuse tto acknowledge it..
u said we shld go back to being gd frenz..i hope so..
i think wad sweet say is right..
one fears wad one's capable of..
i know i recovered from the r/s fast..i'm selfish and wanted ur love as well..
but u got back fast as well..
i feel crappy..

i tried to sleep thru it..

when i woke up..my heart sunk again..my EPT results arrived..
i passed the Written component..failed the oral..its kinda expected..
but this would mean that i have to teach on probation fer a year before going into NIE..
sharks.
i'm really not ready to teach..n..i wun have eileen n yexiang as my classmate..
hiakx..i can extend my thailand trip liaox..

today is not a good day..
nothing is going right today..
i wanna cry myself to slp..i wan someone to acc me to keep my thots occupied..
bahx..

on a hind note..
congrats to my lil sis..
i'm proud of her..
she got her first choice fer NUS and NTU..bizad and comm studies..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
18:56
Thursday, April 26, 2007

its a blissed study session..

teddy had paper today..i'm left alone to study fer MA3218 Coding Theory..
i know i wun study at home..i could have studied at KAP..
but i decided to go somewhere else instead..

i've been contemplating to go there fer a long time..but i decided against it..
well..at least today i found an excuse to..

studying alone is boring n unmotivational..
BUT

check this out! chocolate! haha.. this sure perked me up to study.. came juz in time when i'm going to give up the PYP..bahx.. it feels good to be pampered.. but to think of it..this is the first time someone bought sth to motivate me to study..all these 10 yrs..to think of it..no one ever buy anithing to motivate me lehx.. crapx.. onli at my last exams..

well..it sure made my day.. but the thing is.. look at my disgusting helpsheet and my table of notes..i'm not sure if tts y a gal kept looking at me.. or was it another spy of his again..but i'm quite sure tt not bad looking gal kept looking my way n when i bring my notes to eye level..she peered to look at wad i was studying.. hiakx..i bet she wun understand anithing..

oh well.. for the strawberry choco..i'll work hard fer tmr's paper!

thank you once again for the choco..=)

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
23:27

its a post exams blog 2..

bahx.. PR2202 was hell..
like wad teddy said..its maddnes..
i really hope i can pass..
hiakx..i really dont wanna retake the semester again..
i wannt teacher! i wanna get pay..
bahx..
but at least i spent the rest of the day doing things i like..
watching movie n spending time NOT studying after a trashy paper is gd thearpy..
well..2 down 3 to go..
cant wait fer timbre..cant wait fer the thailand trip..
BAHX

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
23:25
Monday, April 23, 2007

Jux me..

K800i

*edit: test blogging from my HP so tt i can blog from thailand trip to keep teddy updated!*

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
17:05

its a post exams blog 1..

Last Exams in NUS began with a..
phone call..haha

actually not one but a few..
first time i morning call teddy to wake her to exams..bcoz she stays further than me i dont normally wake up to call her..but i did..
first time i get a call in the morning from sweet..it really made my day..

i woke up to a sumptous lunch by my mom..rice, bak gut teh and snow fish..(thanks alot..i din go hungry in the LT)
den took a ride to sch to meet teddy..

Today's paper was GEK2020 Introduction to Film Art..

yesh..as i earlier blogged..i S/U-ed it n i regretted..
tt regret deepened..i spotted 3 topic.. Wong Kar Wai's In the Mood for Love, Orses Welles' Citizen Kane and Eric Khoo's 12 Storeys.

n guess wad...
ALL 3 came out in one way or another..

First excerpt was from ITMFL..the most satisfying essay i've written in a LONG while..
2nd excerpt was from Citizen Kane..as expected with a ladies' sixth sense of me n teddy..but wasnt as satisfying essay bcoz it was onli the ending scene..
Last question was about how different narratives in a film brings abt the ideas n theme of the film, eg 12 storeys has 4 stories, how there r parallel, contrasting or juxtaposed.

this could had been an A-graded paper..
hiakx..its so fated that i dont get As in NUS..
i missed an A bcoz of S/U in SSA2207 Government and Politics of Singapore and now another one bcoz of S/U again..i could have 3 As instead of juz 1..wad am i doing?

den again..its all bcoz i lack confidence in essay papers..but actually..i do pretty well for my essays papers..lit..policitical science..SHIT..i think i'm in the wrong faculty..
i should have gone to Arts..do a combined major in Maths and Political Science and a minor in English Literature..
Right..tt doesnt sound like Cynthia..blahx

another gd start to exams as this...

NUS actually fixed another wooden plank to the LT tables so tt we got more table space for exams..how sweet of them ..
but i wonder..where they store all these planks n how much work was done to label them n fix them on one by one..poor souls.. i guess Science Club taught me the logistics part of every thing tt one does.. =)

rite..on my way back..

i cant help but to take a photo of this sight..

wad the hell is this toopuid blanglah doing..
its raining so freaking heavily tt the place is flooded..n he's still using the spray to wash the floor! wasting my mom's money to pay to HDB for cleaning the place..n wasting water lahx! felt like going up to him n ask him if he know wad's he doing sia.. TOOPUID ehx..

i love today..i dunno y..but i feel happy..like really happy..haha
a gd exam complete = happier cynthia

may God Bless for a happier Cynthia tmr..bcoz i need it more tmr..
Amen

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
16:32
Sunday, April 22, 2007

its a falling in love..

teddy says..falling in love comes in a package..
being affected by the lil lil things tt the opp party does..
here am i..tho independent as i thot..
being affected by my dearest love one..
ah!! i'm affected by my gf..

i dont wanna be a lesbian..but yesh..i'm affected by my gf..
i gonna miss her during our graduation trips...

i'm sorry gf..

i'll be a better bf..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
22:22
Friday, April 20, 2007

its a 2'..

well..it started 4 mths ago..me n gf dearest decided to take yet another module together..the decision GEK2020..took me forever to persuade her..but i guess its a gd choice..

here comes along JS n ken..n we decided to go a film tog instead of a boring essay..

i decided to S/U the module since i had extra S/U..
i felt totally wrong abt the test..n so i thot..luckily i S/U the mod..

ken came up with the original idea..n we had to find props, settings actors etc etc..
and after 3 days of filming..HOURS of editting..thousands of songs selection..
2' (reads: 2 feet) was borned..
the film premier was kinda disappointing..
n i was worried..i thot..darn..i'm not going to graduate bcoz of this darn module..(and of coz the tupid history module)..

den...

test reads: B+

film reads:
Dear All from '2'',
Your grade and comments are as follows:
Grade B+/A-
The film is nicely nuanced and carefully constructed in terms of costumes and props. I appreciated the use of matching shoes to indicate a new coupling, and the choice of ankle bands to differentiate and identify characters. The body language as exhibited by the calves and feet are good in portraying the different stages of the relationship from initial courtship, to a more sexual relationship. I do feel in some ways that the film went on for too long and while I appreciated the use of various pop songs to suggest the particular stage of the romantic relationship, I thought perhaps 3-4 songs would have been enough. I did feel too that the film had one thing to say and kept repeating that, so although I was entertained and amused, I started to hope something else would happen in the narrative.
I am however, very impressed with the ending where the shoes ‘see’ one another from under the banner while the wearers remain more or less obscured from one another. It is a good shot and an excellent moment, worth commending.

Sincerely, Adeline

WAH!!!

WTH..y did i S/U this module!! !#%(%^($#%*
i could have get a B+ easily n pull up my CAP..tho it doesnt make a diff to the deg i'll get..
but y i always S/U modules tt r essay based bcoz my brother thinks i CMI..
onli to realise..i got the arts flair in me tOo..gRrrrrr...

aniway..film making was a remarkable experience..
it wun be the same without js(director), ken(camera man), gf teddy(female lead), joe(male lead)
this is my first film..prob the last..
thank u to the special someone fer being part of it..
(shall keep credit rolls private as the deserving ppl alreadi got their share..)
nevertheless..
its yet another chapter in my life tt i wun forget..
THANK YOU..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
00:10
Thursday, April 19, 2007

its a load of my chest..

AH!!!
thankiew teddy gf..for listening me rattle non-stop..
i feel better..thankiew fer wasting ur studying time on ur owner ^^
life is gd with teddy..
LOVE U LOTX..
MUACKx

study hard..we got lots of things to do after exams..
jiayou!

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
02:43
Wednesday, April 18, 2007

its a BEN n Jerry's free cone day!!..

everyone feels happy when they eat ice-cream..
din know there is such a nobel cause behind free cones day..
*by setting ur aircon to 25 deg..from 22deg..u can save 300 bucks n save the world*

bahx..but my ice cream fell onto the floor with the curse of teddy..>.<

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
23:25
Tuesday, April 17, 2007

its a marriage age..

this is kinda crap..but was browsing Friendster bcoz i really dont feel like study..
here it goes

You know when your birthday is, but
how old should you really be getting
married? (Just put an x next to the
things that apply to you.)

[ ] know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a
calender.
[x] I own more than one credit/debit
card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my
car.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to
say than my friends.

total: 5

[ ] I show up for school/college/work
every day early.
[ ] I always carry a pen in my
pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[x] I have never gotten completely
trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at
least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means
without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a
week.

total: 5

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another
language.
[ ] When I say I'm going to do
something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without
being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[ ] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.

total: 5

[x] can spell 'experience' without
looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know me by
name.
[ ] My favorite kind of food is take
out.
[x] I have gained weight since
middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up
is get caffeine.
[ ] I can go to the store without
getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the
first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.

total: 5

[x] I have realized that the weather
forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place
of employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party.
[ ] I have realized that no one will
take you seriously unless you are over
the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] I have more bills than I can pay.
[ ] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all
night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a
while.
[x] I can read a book and actually
finish it.

total: 5

Overall: 25

add up all the number and repost this
as: "MY marriage age is ..."

quite cool..i wld like to get married at 25..HAHA..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
00:08
Friday, April 13, 2007

its a great day..

today was meant to be a one on one study date with teddy..but SOMEONE had to come along n i had to be a slowing tungsten n had to take a 40mins bus ride to vivo >.<

some other pics.. last day of school life in NUS with leonie..our last official lessons as UNDERGRADs..

i'll so miss teddy..school will never be the same without teddy..sobx..thankiew teddy..u r everything i can ever wish for..nv expected such a CLONE in NUS..*hugs*

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
02:40
Tuesday, April 10, 2007

its a test 10..

You Should Honeymoon in Europe!

You are a traditional romantic at heart...With a taste for fine wine, muesums and beautiful walks.You and your sweetie should get romantic in a cafe in ParisOr get a Eurail pass - and see as many cities as possible!
Suggested destinations: Paris, Venice, London, Greece

http://ynr.blogthings.com/whereshouldyougoonyourhoneymoonquiz/">Where Should You Go On Your Honeymoon?

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
23:21

its a friendster testimonial..

its was juz so simple..so out of the blue..

JaSmInE-QiUxIa
Posted 6/4/2007
Hello Senior Cynthia! how r u? juz now saw ur friendster so popped by to send my regards. Wow! time flies & we have oredi grad frm ctss a few yrs le. Anyway how have u been? r u working oredi? do take care & if free do drop me a reply. Take care! :)

my dear gal guides still remember me..they have been thinking abt me..wad have i done for them? i realised i've neglected many of my friends bcoz of BGR..many start keeping their distance bcoz i close my doors everytime i'm attached..
these ppl whu have me somewhere in their mind r all left out fer my 21st birthday party..instead the ppl who came/invited were "political" moves.. arghx..i hate myself..
after this exams..this trip..after my first pay..i shld be doing sth for the listed ppl..
1. Daniel - Godbrother fer the longest time
2. Hanbin - first bf who nv fail to keep up with me
3. 11th Coy west guides - proud gals of 11 coy west
4. 2B1 - where the teachers hate most.. wadever happen to zirong, kaiyi, anne, freddy, yinghui..
5. 61A - the elite class tt tried to alienate me
6. S12/13 - spent 2 yrs in the rat race with these ppl..
7. ODACians - ara, x.ping, shy, kim, kun, lulu, etc..
8. Godzilla - the bunch of ppl tt allowed my nomination as best OGL..haven done anithing fer them since..

i'm seriously not a good fren..arghx..
i really hope 10-20 yrs down the road..teddy and the other not listed here wun be here..n the list here gets shorter..

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
22:02
Monday, April 02, 2007

its a test 9...

You Are 2: The Helper

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What Number Are You?

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
03:25

its a test 8..

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.
Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.
Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.
Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.
Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.
Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.
Best color to attract mate: Green
Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
03:24