Friday, September 21, 2007
Goodbye..
this was the last time i got to see you..
i din realise ur importance until i broke down in front of my HoD..
until i gave up 3 days of work so tt i can be with you..
i really dont understand y can others be so non-chanalant..
i know we aint close..
but u r my granddad..
prob bcoz u were the only granddad i had memory of..i hate to let u go..
but i know u r at a place less the sufferings..
Dont worry abt us..we have u in our heart..
its been my honour to tie the last tie u gotta wear..
its my honour to be the only rep from the younger generation to acc u thru the day..
i'm happy u r on ur way to meet her..
do give us ur blessings to keep this large family together..
Tan Kim Tuay
1922 - 2007
20 September 2007
183A Jelebu Road
- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
01:12
Thursday, September 20, 2007
its a brave front..
its so hard..
its juz so hard to put up a brave front..
its so hard..
to see him lying there motionless..
to see him so fragile..
to see him wanting to speak..
its so hard..
it seem so easy for some..
to not give him food..
to not give let him be on drip..
to not give him medication..
to not let him drink..
it seem so easy..
im fighting back my tears everytime i see him..
i'm fighting back my tears in front of my family..
y am i so affected? i was not attached to him..
even as a elder..i feel so much..wads wrong with some of them..
this is really too much for me to take..
there r so many regrets..
i juz want him to be himself..be strong..be at peace..
i've been praying so so so hard every morning during devotion..during chapel..
my bro prayed..he had a spiritual struggle..
Wad is God trying to say..pls enlighten me..
I'm only asking for the best for him..
Is this too much?
- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
01:36
Saturday, September 08, 2007
its a first school holiday..
yeap..its a first one as a CHER..MADAM we call it in ACS..haha..
oh well..really nothing better to do den go back fer remedial..tuitions..and spending time with sweet..AND of coz..not forgetting..getting SICK..
i've been sick since teachers' day celebrations..n i'm not getting any better..
and dearest gf started work n is enjoying singlehood..=)
school's starting soon..this feels like term break to me..to recover and start whacking again..but its ok..its gonna be exams soon..and before i know it..my bday..sweet's bday and school holidays! woohoo...
i'm really looking forward to the getaway coming..its not about the getaway..but getting into someone's life..
- cyn -
in a fairytale world (:
18:36
